Sultana Bran

Don't you just LOVE those Sultana Bran songs? Well we (Hermi and Beth) do! And we know all the words off by heart and always sing them in Art 2 piss of Criddy. Works like a charm...So we have decided to spread the wonders of the Sultana Bran Ad world with you by sharing these wonderful lyrics!
Mwhaha...

Song #1

Ooo..it looks like mama's lost the plot,
What's this cereal she's gone and got?
You know its pretty yummy, and I right?
Yeh, shes' right!
Now we want it day and night!
Don't you know its Sultana's from the grapevine,
that makes Sultana bran taste so fine?
Oooo...Sultana's from the grapevine.
Yeh!!

Song #2

Is my watch playing tricks on me?
You're eating breakfast and it's half past 3!!
Well we were starving when we got back,
and Sultana Bran's an awesome snack!
Gotta have some Sultana's from the grapevine
Taste's so good we want them all the time!
Sweet juicy Sultana's from the grapevine!!
Yeh!!

Now wasn't that great? :D
Sing along with me now....
"Sultana's from the grapevine..."
*Mwah*
Blogging off,Hermi and Beth

"It's a journey...and we're on our way!
Come 2 Middle School Performing Arts Evening!!"
Friday 13th August
Roseville College Hall
7.30pm - $5, supper provided, first in best dressed.
Watch great drama, dance and music performences from yr's 7-9!
Bring a cabbage!
See ya there!

The Mank Dance

OK, I 'spose this is reverse advertising, but our dance was kinda looking mank. Most probably becuase we hadn't practiced in 3 WEEKS!! Come on, holidays are times 4 bludgin and we did exactly that! And now we r paying 4 it! So our dance was mank. It's gotten a bit betta tho. Which is good. Because we sent out invites 2 heaps of church people (skool peeps r already coming) so everyone must come! dw, we'll get it better. All "nice and professional looking" as Gemma said. It's a journey...and we're on our way.
Come 2 MSPA!!
Ooo...that rhymes!!
hehe
Bloggin off,
Beth
Ooo yah heard, i'm bustin' ass my word!

Pancakes and Strawberry Hints

I had small group social 2day. Fun fun. But I had to once again get up early to go. It was worth it tho. We went to Pancakes on the Rocks for brunch, most of us succumbed to temptation and had the 'Devils Delight' chocolate pancakes. mmmm.... Helen took lots of photos of our mangled pancakes at the end. Nat and I ate the least, and Anika was a bottomless pit and devoured hers and Ash's meal. We went to the Rocks markets after, that was fun as well. Helen bought a really pretty bracelet for her sisters b'day. I bought Mango Fudge and those hard Rock candy things. Jess bought these luxury strawberries. They are the biggest things u'll eva see and are coated in chocolate and various other yummies. Mmm...Jess bought home a catalogue so she could hint to her Dad 2 buy them 4 her Mum 4 Valentine's Day so she could eat them. She suggested I hint as well. I laughed. Mmm...those strawberries really did look good. We didn't get much time at the markets though because we had 2 catch our bus home. Anika knew her way around the city like a local, so we had no chance of getting lost. But by the time I got home I had a throbbing headache so I collapsed on my bed and slept for 2 hours. Mmm...feels good now tho. :D Hannah's coming over soon because we have a lot of work 2 do on our dance 4 MSPA. Everyone must come and see us dance! Yay! :)
Blogging off,
Beth

Hanni's views on computers:

Hanni's views on computers:
"it really irks me that not only does the computer know more about my dating prospects than I do, but now it's subversively mocking me. I think this is definitely a sign that computers are making serious advances in their conspiracy to take over the world. They're striking us at our collective Achilles heal: the never-ending quest for love. For arguments sake, we'll say that 'love' encompasses 'booty,' too.
It's all a trap to make me increasingly dependent on the computer as a social outlet, as a means of friendly validation. They prey on our vulnerability, building their collective mindpower while we unwittingly fortify their cause."

Missing someone is one of the worst feelings.

Would you know my name? If I saw you in heaven...
Would you be the same? If I saw you in heaven....
                                                                                - Eric Clapton

I think the feeling of constant lack of sleep is becoming normal now.
Argh! 5hrs is so not enuf!

The Sexy Chair Dance

"Watch out boys...we're coming!"
2day we had our first lesson of Hip-Hop. Darrio could not come because unfortunatley he was "stuck in NY"
So we had 2 ex-Rosevillian girls teaching us. They started us off by teaching us "The Sexy Chair Dance"
Now this was funny. A classic. We started by taking 4 sexy steps to the chair, then swinging our leg over, and rubbing our hand up and down it, we turned around and did 8 counts of hip swaying, we then walked around the chair, and sat down and crossed our legs, all with "sexy" faces. Then we did 4 leg open/twist things, spread our legs, and rubbed our hands down one leg at a time. Then we got up again, walked around the chair, flipped it around and straddled it, then spun our leg over the chair to sit sideways, then flung our back over the chair, flicking our legs up and down. Then we walked around the chair again, and stood on top of it and did a "sexy pose". Then we did 4 flicks of the arms, then a bit of a Marilyn Monroe pose, then 2 shimmys, and we did this weird pumping the air thing on both sides. We jumped up and opened our legs while in the air, and landed back on the chair, straddling it. Then we alternated our feet movements, swung our leg over the chair once again and did a "sexy finishing pose". Haha. It was so classic! Just try and imagine all that with about 50 people doing it, all at varying lengths of ability might I say. Haha. We then had 2 perform it in groups, and the Resus people arrived only about a minute after we finished performing. Haha. Poor them they missed out on us. Mrs. B even joined in in all this chair dancing! And the girls teaching us found it funny that they were teaching us the sexy chair dance at an all-girls Anglican school. And they also said we should perform it 2 our "some-one special" much 2 Hannah's delight. Haha.
The only person who objected was Katherine Montano. Everyone else was having loads of fun. She sat with her arms crossed and said she wouldn't do it because it wasn't "proper dancing" and was "innapropriate". Haha. Come on just because we were dancing 2 stripper music while straddling chairs! Haha. Naa, all in the name of fun.
So, the moral of this story is: "Watch out boys! Us sexy chair dancers r coming 2 get ya!"
*Mwah*

ICT sux
I just had mi maths test
One of those uni ones
I finished one hour early and was looking at Ali's books under her table while waiting
I found it quite ironic that she had a book on the meaning of life next to the Bible
This is boring
We're doing flash
Betta b off
Just my thoughts,
beth

Welcome Bec

The blogging world is expanding....
Welcome Bec. :D

I just got a nice phone call from my Aunty Cathy.
She recieved my extreamley long letter and is going 2 sit down with a cup of coffee next to the fire and spend the whole weekend reading it. Hehe.
I said "I love you too" when I got off the phone and Callum thought I was talking to my boyfriend.
When I asked him who my boyfriend was, he thought Monty!
Just because he's come 2 my house a couple of times.
Hahaha.
Sorry but I find that hilarious.
Younger brothers are funny things sometimes.

Quiz: Does your blog own you?

37.5 %

My blog owns 37.5 % of me.
Does your blog own you?

I had mi detention 2day.
I'm a naughty naughty girl. haha
It was very productive.
We sat in silence 4 half an hour
I feel so disciplined
I'll never do wrong again!
It totally changed me!
Haha. As if
I can see why people are serial offenders.
Then I had a painfully boring Christian Studies lesson
Jess dared 2 ask why the Old Testament was relevant when Mrs. Smart said the important part of the bible is Jesus' death and ressurection and all we've done is Old Testament boring stuff.
Gosh Mrs. Smart's a bore. She puts me 2 sleep.
Huge is stupid;with her annoying maps of Australia and feeble attempts to act out the word volcanoe and communicate with the Bunka Japanese girls.

And Loz and Julia defended her. Sad, sad people
I have mi job interview tomoz. :D

 

Christianity Works

Christianity Works
This is a great site.
I suggest u all visit.
The free Bible Studies r good as well.
:)
Cheerio,
Beth

why

Why does he hate me so? Why?
Why is it so hard?
Why does she not know that I need her here now?
Why do I hav 2 go through this? Lord its not fair...
Why give great happiness, then make things change?
Why make me make the little things big?
Why let my mind do this?
The happiness can be good, but the pain is so masking.
Why are the tough times so tough? Please make them easier.
I can turn the happiness on and off, well no not really. I can choose who I want 2 show. Maybe I subconciously want the person 2 find out. But the depressivness is never really turned off, just masked. Only people who really know me can tell the difference. Is the happiness there or is it a masked game.
Gosh, I just really need you here with me right now....

Just got back from a "family get together". Aunty Lee Lee, Tony, Aunty Joey, Steve, Elle, Kelsea, Virginia, Nanny, Pa, Mum and I. I wondered how long it would take them 2 find out about Luke. See my family is very interested in my love life (sad really - espescially mi Uncle Warren) A barrage of questions ensued.  We started 2 drift onto another topic, until Mum goes "Hey! We're interrogating my daughter here!" And it continued. Haha. I think they wanna meet you Luke. Be afraid. Be very afraid.
Hahahahaha.
Hilarity.

Feminism, Chats and Classic Antics

All I can say is that Tim and Ash's party was great!
Of course, being the boring people that they are, the guys didn't get dressed up! But the girls did! Yay! Bec went FULL-ON and spent about 3 hrs curling her hair. It was sooo cool. She looked JUST like Bad Sandy. I wasn't really trying 2 be anyone, but when I arrived Ash went "Ahhh, Beth's Bad Sandy! Cool!" So I suppose that's what I was :D hehe. B4 I left 4 the party I asked mi Dad and younger brother Michael what era I was from. Dad replied "The 90's" and Michael replied "Texas" Hehe. Silly silly people. And 4 some strange reason, Mum thought TIM HUGHES was coming to the party!! She only just found out who he was the other day and she seems 2 think he is part of the group, no matter what I tell her!! Haha.
So neway...the party was really fun! Ash really loved our pressie which was great! I spent a lot of the time with Rach sitting on the couch being lazy and watching people play the iToy thing or wateva it is, where u try and hit things on the screen by waving ur arms in the air. Quite amusing actually. It was warm in there. And everyone wanted us 2 come out, ditch the boys, and hang with the girls. We eventually succumbed 2 temptation. I felt like being more social. So I forced miself into the cold, where we sat around in the garage talking with a bunch o people. Monty was showing his more "feminine" side by wearing Nat's pink satin dressing gown and prancing around like a girl. Luke ended up sitting on his lap, and Ash on mine. I once again discovered Monty's "wandering hand" slowly moving from mi shoulder down, and the same 4 Ash. Gosh that guy is cheeky. He was even trying 2 rub my leg at one time. And rub my head. Haha. He eventually stopped. A slap or so from me and a few evil glares from Luke did the trick. hehe.
So apart from all those shenanigans the party was quite fun. Some funny conversation with some funny people. The hints from various people who will not be named 2 go and "sit on Luke's lap!!" were laughed off, as per usual. (come on as if I would do that in front of everyone! :P)
I was reluctant 2 leave once the party was over, because I was having heaps o fun, but at least I had Ash's after-party 2 look forward 2!! Yay! Monty tried 2 sneak in the car. He wanted 2 join in the "girls pamper night" Girls only. But we thought he was close enough 2 join us. Hehe.  So neway, we were all carpooled back 2 Ash's house. When we got there she showed us her pamper table. It was soo cool! First, we got foot scrub and put it all over our feet, then we took in turns putting our feet into the foot spa. Then we massaged each others feet with mango stuff, then painted the toenails. Next up we had our face masks, mud masks and cucumbers, and we let them dry while we watched 'Grease' and sang along 2 all the songs. Then we did our nails, with hand massages, buffing, polishing, filing and doing French Manicures. And we had massage lines, using various things such as our hands, those little plastic octopus massages and the bead massages. It was a total girls pamper night! Then we had dinner (Tacos) and watched '50 First Dates'. Nat and I were the only ones who hadn't seen it! We just fitted all that in b4 most of the girls had 2 leave. So only the people who were sleeping over were left. Which was Megan, Steph D, Mel, Ash (obviously) and me! We got our mattresses set up and watched 'In America' while eating chokkie and drinking OJ. It was a totally sweet movie! :D That finished at about 2am.  Then we talked 4 about 2 hrs!! Hehe. Lots of girly stuff mentioned here, from bitchiness 2 guys. I got a lot of, lets just say "advice" on my love life. Haha. And Mel was embaressing Hayley by saying "Hey, Hayley, y'know, u and Andrew, ay?" And we were all saying that Ash should have kissed Tim because she was "16 and Never been kissed" and also because the knife from the cake was dirty and she had 2 kiss the closest boy, but she wouldn't!! At the party, we were all chanting "Dirty! Dirty! Dirty!" hehe. Didn't work though. Monty was jealous, he wanted the kiss. We evetually settled off around 4am, after Mel was screaming at us 2 shutup numerous times!
We had a sum total of 4 and half hours sleep! Argh! We were awoken bi Ash's mum clanging pots and pans, and then becsuse it was Mel's b'day, she was served brekkie in bed, with a pile of pancakes with maple syrup on the top and a scoop of icecream, topped off with a candle and a birthday song! Yay!
And I then got driven home. Ash and I consumed the rest of the chocolate in the morning, much 2 Mel's disgust!! SO yeh that was mi fun day and a half.
Bloggin off,
Beth

Grease is the word.....

y do people have 2 be so mean 2 other people and make them feel horrible when all they are doing is trying 2 help?

Small Group was amazing.
There was such a prescence.
I felt so moved.
Some of the things people were saying were jsut so...wow
Small Group was amazing

I hate....

Today was a bad day.
Apart from being amused numerous time by Jess.
Reynolds gave me a detention.
I hate Reynolds.
This has been the longest day on record.
I have been up since 5.30am
Don't mess with me.
School is stressing me out.
Stressing...stressing...stressing...stressing...stressing
I hate school.

100th Post!!!

Wow. This is my 100th post. I really have grown in the bloggin world. :)
Mi blogs r becoming better. More like an experienced blogger. I can't exactly describe how. But they are! *Mwhahahaha*
I hate school.

Hazards, Pressies and Pete Murray

Casey is a hazard. She smashed into the wall the other day in English and broke it. A massive bit fell off, and all these wires came out. You hazard you, Casey. I warn you everyone stay away! *Mwhahaha* Casey likes to "hide" herself in corners. She curled up at the bottom of one 2day in CS, and Jess and I sat on her. hehe....ur a silly thing Casy. See, there u go you got your mention, u happy now? :P
Argh. I hate school. I say we should have one day of school, then another 3 weeks of holidays. Now that would be good. Home and Away is on. It is a sad show. Alf has got dementure or sumthing, he had a vision of a cloud. But as in a pathetic kinda sad. I mean, come on, as if I could be upset that Alf is physcotic.  The storylines are outrageous. Who cares? Obviously not me anymore.
I bought the Pete Murray album 2day. I love Pete as I have mentioned previous times b4. I am soo gonna see him in concert! Ahh!! Getting excited bout it. Better add it 2 mi 2do list. Organise Pete Murray concert. Mel and I went 2 Chatty this 'arvo 2 get presents 4 Tim and Ash's b'day party. After looking 4 stuff 4 Tim, we decided the best thing 2 give a guy is $$$. And so that is what he is gettin. Guys are too hard 2 buy 4! But we got the perfect present 4 Ash. It's a combined one. Its so amazingly cute and pretty, and sweet and everything. I love it. Wow. Aren't we great at choosing pressies. :D
Hehe.
Can't wait 4 wkend. I hate school. I miss Small Group. It's tomorrow! A great start 4 the wkend! Yay!
Bloggin off,
Beth

Mrs. Boshier is a bitch. She moved me down right to the front of the class 4 the rest of the semester. All because Amber whispered 2 me. How rude. It's like she has permanent PMS or sumthing.
I had mi first guitar lesson 2day after I taught myself it 4 2weeks. The teacher really liked me. Hs name is Andy. He's cool. Quite funny. He loved mi hands (long guitar/piano fingers, y'see?) and he gave me his guitar 2 use and bring home and practice with so I wouldn't have 2 use "Ivan" - mi younger brother's 3/4 size guitar. He was very impressed with how much I knew. :D
Coles Myer say they "would like to congratulate you (me) in advancing further in the recruitment process!"
Oh yay. I am quite desperate. I really need some cash. Trying 2 survive on $10 p/w sure is hard! Well I s'pose any job is better than Maccas's or sum other digusting fast-food place. Only if I get a job, balancing the million other commitments I have in my life will just become harder. Gosh, don't you just wish there was more time?

Lord please help me to not judge people. I try so hard not 2 do it but sumtimes I can't help myelf. Like I'll think, "Oh, that person's not a Christian, because they don't act like it" And it's wrong. And I know it's wrong. And I shouldn't think that either. Please help me not to. And help me not to judge myself on others actions. Tom's sermon the other week was amazing, and it really hit me, because this is exactly what I have been thinking about, and sometimes have been doing. That, "maybe I'm not holy enough or a good enough Christian, because I don't know much about the Bible". And I'm trying to evangelise, and I hear all these stories about people who have preached to over 3 million people in over 50 countries, and althought it is great, it is also kind of disheartening. I have just finished reading Acts, and although the stories of Paul's evangelising are amazing, it just makes me feel so helpless sometimes. Like, i reach like what 4 people, and Paul sparks the growth of Chrisitanity and converts MILLIONS. I know I can't compete with Paul, but sometimes I just wonder...am i even making a difference?

Well, mi day started off with a bird smashing into the car window while crossing Roseville Bridge. Ok, maybe I should explain a bit more....
Well, I was quite happy 2 know that IGSSA Gymnastics was not on this morning so I got 2 sleep in until 7.30!! Wow, it was great!! So I got a lift in with Casey. And this is where the bird incident occured. Ted was speaking on the phone and the bird hit the windscreen and we all started screaming. Shows that you shouldn't speak on the phone while driving. Poor birdy. It was horrible. :(
So I got 2 school, very reluctant 2 be there, but happy 2 see mi friends!!! I had totally missed them!!! Mi group found out about Luke pretty quickly, they started writing funny and silly poems about him that they hand-delivered 2 me in CCH. Let's just say we won't share them. :P Hehe.
But the classes totally sucked. It was cold in history. And I felt sick most of the day. It might be because I didn't have much 2 eat. That happens sometimes.  I was bored. I'm worrying about assignments. I have 3 already.
School is ridiculous.
 

"I'm a lumberjack and I'm ok...I sleep all night and I work all day!"

The last day of my holidays (*sniff*) was a very fun one I am glad 2 say! The day started with me getting up extreamly early (9.00am!!) 2 go and have breakfast with Luke. That was very nice. :D Me being the weird eater I am could hardly consume anything (no surprise 4 me in the morning!) We saw Bec and Pete H there, which was kinda random. And also sum random Swedish exchange student with a cool accent!! I love accents! :) That Swedish guy has almost become a personal joke at school already. Hmmm...its quite strange how personal jokes are made very quickly at our school! Neway, I'm getting a tad off the topic here!! Moving on, after brekkie, I went home, Dad picked me up which was good becuase I wasn't looking forward 2 a long hike home. Hehe, mi Dad is soo random! Becuase he dropped me at Macca's, he thought I was actually going there 4 brekkie! All I can say is Eeew! and Dad ur a strange one! So i got home, after waiting in the cold for a while and having a random nice converstaion with this random lady on the street about the weather, and Gemma came over when I got home. :D Yay. We put our application in for Coles Myer! So then Monty came and picked us up, and we walked 2 Glenrose, and bought food (we saw Abby Jansen there, gosh her face hasn't changed one bit but she is so much taller! She looks jsut like her sis!) then we headed off to the park. Nat and T2 (Buckley) came shoon after. But then it started 2 pour, so we rushed into the Church. We didn't really have much 2 talk bout, that was kinda strange. Then we ate a bit more and they left, so it was jsut Monty and Gemmie and me. Then T1 (McCloud) came, this is where the fun began!! I think that T1 brings out the dirtiness in Monty, because all out talk turned dirty, from "rim jobs" to "losing the paddle" and "rowing", we said it all baby!! Fun had bi all. The lumberjack Monty Python song came up as well, seeing as Monty was wearing his "lumberjack jacket" as he so affectionatley put it. And much 2 T1's amusement I showed him mi felxibility skills. :P And I did this spontaneously funny impression of Pete Hayes. I was sitting at the drum kit, and I pulled mi jumper hood right over mi head like Pete always does and randomly hit the drums with my head down while saying "Mi name is Pete and I'm a great drum player!" Yes, I know, it was quite mean, but I don't think I ever got over that Bible bashing incident, and the impression sure was funny!! Hehe. I feel slightly guilty. :P Neway, I ended up having 2 go (becuase i was getting mi Hep A needle later! Argh!) so the guys walked me home. When we got 2 mi street, Monty spied the pile of things outside mi neighbors yard, ready 4 council cleanup, after rummaging around in there 4 a while, he jumped out and proudly produced a bunch of golf clubs. He stood there grinning at us, and we realised how much he looked like a hobo! Honestly, he had these black trackpants on, a red checked "lumberjack" shirt, shoes that looked like he'd found them on the side of the road, a pair of golf clubs swung over his shoulder, crazy hair, and the perfect hobo grin. Oh the hilarity of it. So basically my day spent bumming at the Church was filled with many, many laughs. Ahh, ya gotta luv those guys!
Bloggin off,
Beth

A Slave 2 the Blog - Life's Great!

Well the day totally got better! After I got over my Back 2 School Blues... We had a short blackout, and that was bad. But once Church starts -all is good! :D Once again, I felt sick in the service, AND i had this massive coughing fit, and I had 2 run out of the room, and tears were streaming down mi cheeks from all the coughing. It was horrible. I like couldn't breathe. But the service was totally good, apart from it being FREEZING!!  Kirsten's sermon really related to me, I thought it was great, well structured, precise, and it got through to me. So s'all good. And the worship team and songs, lead by Luke, might I say nice job!! And wen u sung, totally cool! Like Mel said - "you sounded like a pro!" U've got a lot of talent there :D But y may I ask did Hannah W and Jess not come 2 church? I can understand y Hannah W didn't but Jess.....hmmmm So neway, I had A LOT of good bonding time with my guy friends 2nite. Which was all good. Monty got too close 4 my comfort (and Luke's too ;) ) a few times, but all in good humor, ay? Haha.  So yeh, totally bonded with a lot o people 2nite, so I was really pleased with that. I'm still really looking forward 2 the party! I'm enjoying asking what everyone is gonna wear!! SO after Church, we went 2 Maccas which was also fun! I scabbed my lift in with Tom, in his chick-magnet van, and Jo, Gemma  and Monty came along as well. Jo was talking all about how she felt sorry 4 the Maccas staff because we always came there and they knew we were from the Church and we were so rude and made such a mess and everything. Hehe, and Jo and Tom were both sayin how I was talkin bout how I know who Monty likes in mi blog, and how I jsut ramble on and don't even know wat I'm saying. Becuase I couldn't remember saying that! but it's soo true! I do ramble!! hehe, I'm doing it now! *mwhahaha*
There were a group of drunk guys in Maccas. They made me laugh. I like watching drunk people. They amuse me greatly. :D I'm a strange one. It was Luke and I's 1 week anniversary as Monty so kindly reminded me. I think he just wanted 2 point out that Luke 4got, which he actually didn't, but yeh, meh! In Macca's I had some good squishy conversation with friends. We were talking bout practical jokes. Monty said how u buy two drinks of coke. Finish one of them, then cut the bottom of it, put it on the tray, and pour all the coke from the otha one into it, and then move away. When the Maccas staff come 2 clean it up, they pick up the coke cup and coke spills and bursts out EVERYWHERE! Hehe. How evil. And Gemma and I were reminiscing on Mr. Channels, Johnny and his biscut, and "personal space". That was fun. And then I moved and had some good un-squishy conversation with other friends! Aren't friends great?! I luv mi friends! Scabbed another lift home with Matt Stanton. Gosh Mel can b a funny one. We danced around outside singing "Heaven...I'm in Heaven!" to get warm! And then I had mi late dinner when I got home. And, this is good because I LOVE 2 be oragnised, I have finally organised wat I'm doing tomorrow! I had like 3 different people wanting 2 do 3 different things with me tomorrow. But I have now managed to do 2 of them, and compromise with the other! How good is that!
 
Life is great....
School on Tuesday.
But life is great.
At least I can see my Rosie friends!! I haven't seen 'em 4 soooo long!! 3 weeks!!
Luv ya'll!
Blogging off,
A slave 2 the blog,
Beth

Back 2 School Blues

Went 2 go 2 tha movies 2day 2 see Raising Helen with Mum and Callum. The power broke, and so we didn't get 2 see it. Damn it 2 hell! It is sooo dam windy outside. We drove up to the lookout over Collaroy Beach. The waves were so huge! Then we drove home. I gave up going out with Mel and Gemma 4 that. How utterly disapointing. Church 2nite. I sooo miss it. And I don't know y, I mean i went last week. Weird. I don't wanna go back 2 school. How evil. I'm teaching miself "Wonderworld" by Oasis on the guitar. Yay. I really love that song. Listening to it now actually - "There are many things that I would like 2 say to you, but I dont know how, I said maybe, You're gonna be the one that saves me, and after all, you're my Wonderwall!" Quite a good song. Mmmmm... Em, G, D, A7sus4
I really don't wanna go bak 2 school. I love seeing my friends every day. And, crazy thing is, I miss Luke. Yes and I saw him on Tuesday. 5 days. How sad is that. Once I go back 2 school I'm gonna have 2 get used 2 going without him 4 5-6 days EVERY WEEK! I'm gonna die. Ahhh...I'm already dead. These have been like the best hols eva, and they are finishing and I totally can't accept it. Just like Mel can't accept that Summer is gone and over, and isn't coming back 4 ages!
I'm looking forward 2 Ash and Tim's b'day party. Should be good! Grease dress up theme, then girly sleepover. Should be fun!! Eh'xcelent. But the only bad thing is I've gotta get 2 pressies and mi costume in a week!
 
Argh...stupid school!
Mi back 2 School Blues...
Blogging off
Beth

The Torture of CCC

Yesterday I went 2 sleepova at Mel's house at 'round 6pm. After I had a forced bummy day, I was glad 2 get out!! KC came as well. SO Mel had this wonderful idea that we should go to Pulse at CCC. So we went. And mi god it was sooo bad! First, we came and we got lost! Because this place is sooo massive! We ended up finding Rory and he told us where it was.  So we walk downstairs into this room and the first thing I think is, "Mi God it's like a nightclub" And it sure was. It felt like I was in this illegal, underground rave party place. The music was sooo loud, and the sound system was pretty awesome. It was sooo big though. This place is so rich! There was all this modern cool artwork on the walls, and these little red poof chairs, with mini table at knee height with candles on it. There was this bar, and a stage with a DJ on it and surround by the MASSIVE sound system. Then there were pool tables, and a screen with random videos on it, with like bunnys and stuff killing each otha. And the back door was open so people kept on coming in, lots of people. Seriously all this stuff is like nuthing our church could ever afford. Not that I even want it! I totally missed St.Steves, with it's good 'ol green carpet and EBN's simple laser lights. And everyone was soooo dressed up as well. This place didn't have a good vibe 'bout it. We looked 'round 4 people we knew but we couldn't see ne1 so we were totally lonered. We ended up sitting down, wondering wether it would start. But the strange thing was it never did. It was jsut music all the time. It was total boredom torture. I started 2 feel sick so we went out of the room and sat in a hallway talkin. We tried 2 prank Mel's Dad so he would pick us up, but I didn't know my fone was a private number (I've changed it now!) Then we tried 2 prank Luke, and we ended up messaging him 2 tell him 2 call me. He wouldn't come and save us which was a shame. But we talked 4 abit. Mel tried 2 get him 2 come by saying things like - "If you love her, which you do, you will come!" and "There are heaps of hot guys here and they are all coming up to Beth and she is very tempted" It didn't work. He just laughed. haha. So we ended up running into this seminar room and watching TV. How sad of us. And we found lollipops in the kindergarten cupboard and we ate them. How mean of us. We ended up going home around 10. But it was soooooo bad! When we got bak 2 Mel's house we watched home videos (hehe, i saw u as a 1 as a 10-yr old Luke! U look sooo different! Mwhahahah....) and the Castle.
I left her house at bout 1pm. We only woke up at 12.00 midday because we didn't get 2 sleep 'till 2am! Argh. So tired. And then Bec Baines came over 4 dinner. We had baked dinner. :D Yum! We had a nice chat in mi room, and we did those little matchmaking quizzes where u add all the letters in ur name and do all this random stuff. Hehe, Luke and I got 97% compatability and Bec and Luke got 17%! Hehe. Jsut 2 give you an example. We did more people obvously. Mwhahaha.
So that was basically mi day.
How tiring.
Im tired.
Nitey Nite.

Fun Times on the Island

I am really sooo lucky.
I have so many people in this life who love me.
Great friends.
Great relationships.
I have so many things that are great.
Mmm....life sure is good

Mi Boredom Filled Rant

I'm just reading throught my archives, because I am so incredibly bored, and hehe, mi old blogs r funny. Not that they are really that old seeing as I've only been blogging since May, but I'm reading the blog about where Mel and I had a fight about Luke in front of everyone at small group and found out a "secret" bout me. Hehe, well it's not much of a secret now is it? It's funny, looking back on my blogs, how many things I had to conceal back then. Mmmm..sumthin 2 think 'bout.
 
I'm having an incredibly boring day. Mum says I have to stay home becuase I have literally done something everyday since I got back from Canberra. I really should do this stupid Science assignement.  But I am the world's biggest procrastinator so I won't! Mwhahaha.
 
Y'know, just talking to Mel last night, sometimes I wonder, if guys will ever figure out how evil girls can be. Not in like mean bitchy ways, but in like their secretive things. Like, "you ask him this for me, and then you tell me what he said after" or "oh mi gosh, so and so just told me who he likes" Stuff like that. It's quite amusing in hindsight, and being a girl and all. But I feel sorry for the poor, clueless guys. Hehe, I s'pose girls always were the superior race, neway! Hehe, girls you all know what I'm talking bout!
Ok I sounded like Shannon Noll then. Scary. I don't like Shannon Noll that much. Matter o fact I don't like Guy Sebastian either. I just assosciate them together becuase they were on Australian Idol.
 
Mmm...I think I'm learning to touch type. Like not on one of those stupid computer programs at school where they try and get u to learn them. But just because I am on the compuet so often chatting to people and blogging all the time, that I just seem 2 know where all the keys are. Hmmm...that's cool. But I s'pose it's not a good sign, seeing as I'm on the computer so much I'm learning to touch type. Maybe my brain will turn to mush becuase of all the radiaton waves. Hehe...hmmm how interesting. That stupid program at school never worked on me. Becuase I cheated and looked down at the keys. Hehe..naughty bethie. But come on you can't blame me, it was deathly boring.
 
How cool is the new Blogger posting thing?! So many more things to do, different fonts and sizes and colours and bullet point things and left, centre and right alignments, and uploading images that doesn't work! haha. No wonder Blogger had 2 hours of down time the otha day. How amazing of them to get all this done. Nice work Blogger. Love the new layout, will have to play around with it a bit.
 
Hmm mi Mum is like desperate to find my blog. She is getting really pissy at my becuase I won't tell her the address and I will tell my Aunty Cathy. But I can trust Aunty Cathy. Yes I can. Hello if you are reading! Feel proud I can trust you! We had to fill out this thing in PD last year, and it said, who would be the member of your family, extended or wateva, who you would trust to tell if you were preganant at a young age. And I said you Aunty Cathy. So there. I'll be coming to you if I have a problem. :) But don't worry, because I'm not gonna be getting pregnant when I'm a teenager, becuase I'm only having sex with marriage.
 
Mmmm...I s'pose I better get bak to reading these archives. Might I add, why is no-one blogging. I am so bored and need contact with the outside world!!
 
Amor Omnia Vincit (and it sure does...)
 
Beth

mi grandparents just had a car accident... :(

Mi Exhaustingly Fun Day

2day was a cool yet long long day. Gemma and I were rudley awaken in the morning at the ungodly hour of 9.30!! Man it was horrible. It took us like 20mins to get out of bed, because we couldn't even get INTO bed before 12.30 because James was being annoying and wouldn't get out of the room cuz he was watching a movie. Damn James. SO we got like no sleep. And then once we were well and truly up, Mum rang to say that mi ortho was actually half an hour later than she thought so we could hav slept in longer! Argh.. Don't you hate that? Then Gemmie and I took Tish 4 a walk.

Mum came and took Gemma and I with her. The Ortho was a disappointing visit. I won't get mi braces off 4 bout 3 months now, longer than they originally told me. Always happens but is still a bummer. And I was sayin how I was sick of havin stuff on mi teeth, because they happily informed me that after I got mi braces off, I had 2 wear a retainer full time for a year!!! How utterly crap. Then mi ortho goes up to me and says, "U've had your braces on 4 13 months now, and you had your other thing on 4 a year as well, so I think you're overexadurating a bit". I could have punched him. What a loser. That is ages!! And I hav 2 have stupid bands in 4 9 weeks, but I am so not wearing them when I go out. They are so totally horrible. Argh. Stupid ortho.

So then we bought me new clothes, which was good. :D I got 2 new pairs of jeans, a brown jumper and a spearmint top. :) Yay. And then we got food and went home. Gem and I were pushing it fine by then, and so once we got home, I changed, then we left 4 Glenrose 2 meet Mel. We were gonna have coffee, but ended up not. I bought chips and Mel and Gemma ate them all. How nice of them - not! :P Mel also brought apple sliced up in a little bag. Funni anorexic Melli. We saw Steph D and Yusuke, and we crashed their "bonding seesion" and had a chat 4 a while. It was nice. :D Haven't seen Steph in ages. Hehe, she as well was surprised about how much gossip I knew bout church. hehehe...being a gossip queen is fun fun!

So then we headed off to Nats house, Gemma, Mel and I. We arrived and started watchin this realli random movie called "Fried Green Tomatoes" which we gave up on and watched "Signs" instead when T1 and Monty came. So basically it was Nat, T2, T1, Monty, Bec (buckley, standing behind us painting) Jodie, Hannah, Mel, Gemma and I. Jodie was scared in Signs, and we all screamed at exactly the right times, on purpose. Bec found us absolutley hilarious. But T1 was the most scared, he sat there with his head in a pink pillow he was huggin rocking back and forth, and it was soo funni. Ash Bennet came 4 about half an hour after the movie finished. She had a hair cut and it was soooo cool!! We all had a nice chat 4 ages. The 3 guys had a wrestling fight, and it was quite scary. Hehehe...Mel kept on making unsubtle hints.

It was obvious who Monty likes, even thought he only narrowed it down 2 2people 4 me the otha day, but won't admit who it is now that I'm sure I know.
The day was pretty good. But I am so totally exhausted. I was fallin asleep at the end of the evening.

I miss you.

Blogging off,
Beth

Bloggable Thought

Gemma and I were just eating dinner (spag bol, mmmmm) and Gem was saying how she wanted 2 change her screensaver to that weirdo maze thingo. And then we had a flashback memory of the good 'ol Mimosa days, where Mrs. Crummy (the librarian) would be talking, and we would all be sitting in front of her, not listening, just concentrating on the maze screensaver on the computer behind her. Haha. She got very frustrated.
Ahhh...good times, ay Gem? Good times.....

Hey y'all. I'm at Gemma's house. Bloggin on her brand new flat screen computer in her room. Lucky thing. We just went and saw Lion King at the Capitol Theatre. It was soooo amazing! The sets and costuming definatley. And also the little kid who played little Simba was sooo cute. Same 4 Narla. He even did a handspring, sure not a very good one, but i don't think ne1 else noticed, and he was cute so I 4give him. :D I think I'm sleeping ova at her place. Eh'xcelent. Rite now Gemma is strumming a VERY off-tune guitar. I was hoping to play it, but it's so off-tune, it's beyond hope. Shame really. I have an ortho appointment tomorrow at 10.00. Yay. I'm gettin mi braces off soon. 2 and half months. Gosh. Can't wait. I'm totally ova braces now. They're such a hassle man.
Mmmm....lifes good, ay? I'm glad u don't hate me nemore Hannah. Yay. Life's very very good. Thanks God. U rule.
Thats all 4 now.
Just mi thoughts.
Beth

Canberra Pics

Hey, here are some pics of my trip to Canberra, the ultimate hole.
Sorri that I can't put them all on the one post, this program I have won't let me do it, and im not exactly sure how neway...
Hmm....
well neway. Enjoy!


Casey and I at the War Memorial


Michael at the War Memorial in the kids dressing up room.


Casey (aka. "Fatima" as mum nicknamed her) and Mel (who came to visit us on her way through from Sussex to the Snow) and Me! We were sitting outside so we could talk, and it was 2 degrees!!


Michael after his cycling race at the crit


Callum after his cycling race at the road track


Mitch, KC and I. This pic was taken just 2 mins after Mel left, literally! Poor Mel. :( Haha!

Oh looky there I did it! All on the one post too :) It was damn hard, but, meh. It's cool. Easier to read. Well I hoped you enjoyed!

I just remembered....

I just remembered, that it was really funny, cuz in the middle of the movie, a guy on the movie goes "Now you know what really makes girls fall in love with you...poetry!" And everyone in the group started laughing, and looked ova at Luke and I, and I was laughing and looking at Luke and he just slid down in his seat and went bright red. It was a quite hilarious. And the fact that the movie said it was also funny.
And also...Westie got lost at lunch. And we neva found him. U'd think it'd be easy seeing as he is so tall, but nup, we lost him and neva found him! Poor Westie.

I wonder where Westie is now.....

The Language of Love

What is ur love language?
Choose from these below. They are the "5 languages of love"
Its from sum book or anotha.

Anyway the choices are...
-> physical touch
-> words of affirmation
-> acts of service
-> meaningful gifts
-> quality time

So what do u think urs is?

If I had 2 say me personally I'd probably say: words of affirmation/quality time as first, but physical touch comes close after. I mean it's totally needed as well, what would a relationship be without it?! Like some people don't kiss until their married. I mean how weird is that? I mean, if I didn't kiss in the relationship, then it wouldn't really be a proper relationship. It's just such a weird thing to think about. Not kissing....hmmmmm....weeeeiird

Good Times

Saw Spidey 2 2day with Luke, Pete H, Joel, Anika, Jodie, Mel, Gemma, Hannah S and Bec. I was lucky enuf 2 get a lift in and home with Hannah. :D The movie was better than I thought it would be actually. Good as the first. Loads of action. The end totally set it up for the next one though. Gemma tried to force me to eat lunch after, but I could only eat half my Twister. I had to stop or I would hav thrown up. I don't know what's wrong with me! Why can't I eat? Luke and I had to endure yet another few hours of unsubtle hints and "awwwwws", but you know, I'm sure they'll get over it soon. Right, right?! haha. Oh well. It's all worth it.
Hannah W please don't hate me.

Cross-generational dating

extracting from Rach:
"Love is in the air at the moment. There's a sudden couple influx at church, which is quite exciting. It's plaguing both my generation (ie Lozza & Chris, Bec & Matt), and the younger generation (Beth & Luke). Of course, being 3-4 years younger than me, they're classified as a whole other generation. Now if there was some cross-generational dating, we'd have a church scandal. How fun, and perhaps inappropriate, all at the same time."

Hehe, Rach once again tickles my funni bone. Go the cross-generational dating! Haha. I say Mel should initate this, i mean she knows all the "older generation" well neway. ;) And isn't it funny how we classify such a short age difference as a generation. Quite interestingly funny really...
But I'm glad the frigid non-dating church community, (whether it be Ernie Sr, Ernie Jr (which is beating Ernie Sr in the love stakes which is quite sad) or Rach's generation) trend may finally be breaking...
Bring it on Ernie Sr!
Come on we can beat those Jr's!!
Bring ooonnn the luurve

God-Sent Inspiration

Mel and I had a bummy day 2day. Woke up at 9:30am and atyed in bed till 11.00! We both lay in bed listening to Tom's sermon and cacking ourselves! Tom u r one funny guy. And what an amazing sermon. It was funy, yet still related to me today. I thought it was great. :D 'Snaps 4 Tom' And we stayed in our PJ's ALL day! :D Eh'xcelent!
And then Mel and I spent basically the rest of the day being musos, and get this - we wrote our own song on the guitar!! I'm so excited. I've always wanted 2 write one, but I never thought I would be able to. Though thanks to God we could. We read his word, and prayed 4 his help and inspiration a few time, combined our limited knowledge together (i've been playing guitar 4 5 days, and mel 4 bout a month or so) and voila, we have a song!! It's called "Soul of the Earth" and i love it sooo mcuh! I would love it to be played in Church one day. That wouldbe truly awesome.
Mi life is pretty much perfect now (and yes it's more than the one obvious reason that alll of your gossip queens are thinking) except for one thing. I tried my hardest to reconcile, but she didn't want to. It's very sad. She was one of my really good friends. I don't know what happened. It almost doesn't seem fair. :( But I tried, and I will forgive, and I hope she will forgive me for whatever "horrible" thing I did to her that I have no idea of. Time will tell, and it heals all wounds.
But on a kind of good note, I now know who anonymous is, thanks to Luke's computer detective skills. 'Snaps 4 Luke'
So yeh, mi day in a blog.
Bi Bi all.
Luv ya
Beth

Halleujiah - AN AMAZING DAY

Well, today. It was the most amazing, surreal day ever. It felt like it was many many days combined, and now the day is over the result has me overwhelmed. Well, in case you didn't know, seeing as the whole church, and pretty much the whole world knows. Luke and I are going out. That was just 4 all of you who hav been living in a hole and don't know! (and Hannah W u didn't know yet because i couldn't get onto you!) So neway, we went 2 coffee bout 11.00, and Luke lost track of time, so he had 2 go, but he gave me this poem he had written. A very romantic poem. Pretty much self-explanatory of feelings and hopes 4 our future poem. So I'm walking home in the rain reading it, in disbelief, smsing luke 2 double check its bout me, yup is, yeh feelings mutual etc. Yes! It is. Yay :D So everythings pretty much perfect :) Love is an amazing thing.

So then Mel and I hang out and chill, being the amazing musos we r, play the guitar basically the whole time. I learned 3 new songs, Here I am To Worship, Feels Like Home, and This Kiss. This Kiss is Mel's fave, shes playing it right now in mi room! :) So we shot off 2 church, which we were both totally looking forward 2 going 2 because we had missed it, the service was good. Sermon good, Sal was very enthusiastic and full of spirit 2 say the least! Although I couldn't fully enjoy it because I was feeling a bit light headed. It was very hot in there. Don't know what Tom's talking bout it being cold!! Oh and on the topic of Tom, he gave me his sermon on CD!! Yay! 'Snaps 4 Tom' Ur a champ Tom! Moving on...but then after I went out 2 the front to be prayed 4, and it was the most amazing feling. All my friends surrounding me praying for me, and I felt so full of spirit, and close to God again! Thankyou Lord, for everything. And the best thing yet, is i actually feel accepted in the group now!! I dunno why, I just do. We went 2 Macca's after. Our group took up pretty much the whole place, and we filled the roles of evil, raucous teenagers very well! :) Pete H FINALLY found out who I am!! 'Bout time too! Ahh, meh, he'll prob. end up 4getting me again neway. The whole day was just so great, dreams coming true, feeling accepted, and being closer 2 god now. Oh and the guitar!! 'Snaps 4 guitar' So yeh, I betta b off, can't leave Mel 4 much longer!
Blogging off,
an extremley contented and thankful,
Beth

What do you do when you realise all your dreams have come true?

today is another day.
i wonder what it will bring...

OK, come on. It's time. Fess up anonymous. Who are you and how do you know so much about me and mi life? Have some balls and reveal yourself. Tomorrow will be an interesting day, ay? I thought the exact same thing...
Somethings going on and I'm gonna find out what...

Im so confused...again
I don't know what to think
Is it real?
Hmmmm... I feel a poem approaching, or maybe sum good 'ol guitar

Hmmm, just thinking bout Bailey's. It is so damn nice. Mi fave i think. I don't really like beer or red wine that much. White wine's alright, but I much prefer the lolly alochol drinks, like Bacardi. Loaded with alcohol, but don't taste much like it. Really sweet. Creamy's good too. I love cocktails. Don't like the strong stuff too much. Mi aunty bought me a margerita or a martini (can't remember which one), and the vodka in it blew me away. Strong taste of yucki vodka, then yummy aftertaste after. I didn't know if I liked it or not. Finished it though. Not too fond of vodka, hmmm...its alrite tho, not that bad. Maybe my alochol tastes will mature with time...

"Just like a chocolate milkshake...only very alcoholic!"

Mi night with Jess, Gemma and Ali started off with a few shots of Baileys and milk which we stole from Jess's Dad's liquor cupboard while they were out. Just like a choclate milkshake..only very alcoholic! And delicious. Mmmm...gotta luv it.
After the effects of the shots wore off we watched a few movies, one of them a very bad once called Fear. And we read magazines. Then we hyped up again, and shoved pillows down our pyjama tops and had sumo fights. Now that was fun. Jess's mum looked slightly perplexed at the humor in it. We ended up nodding off round 2:00am, not because we were tired, but because we thought we should and we were keeping Jess's parents up. We had a very rude wake-up call in the morning from Mel. All our phones rang at least once in a 10min interval. It was the worst wake-up call I've ever had. Mel was waaay too hypo on the phone that early in the morning! I mean, come on, it's 10:30!! We eventually dragged ourselves out of bed, and Jess and Ali made pancakes while Gemma and I sat at the window talking about girly things, including which guys are hot and which r not at church. Hehe, jsut a little inncent fun. I didn't eat brekkie, opting to play "Fur Elise" on the piano instead. (i dont like breakfast, or eating that much food in the day at all actually, mi hunger kicks in at night!)
Then we hung around and talked 'till our parents picked us up, and I did a 1km erg! (4 those of you who don't know what an erg is, its a rowing mcahine thing, and jess has her own 1 in her room, at the small cost of $2000!!!!)
I didn't even break a sweat, but that's prob. because I did it wrong! Haha
I'm glad 2 get home now. In guitar deprival mode. I'm teaching miself "Innocent Eyes" bi Delta now. :)
Blogging off,
Beth

Guitar Fuelled Joy

I'm teaching myself how to play the guitar! I'm so excited. First song I'm teaching myself is Pete Murray - So Beautiful (mi fave song in the world) and I'm also attempting to learn Tim Hughes - Here I am to Worship, but I'm waiting for Mel to come back so she can help me with that once, because she supposdley has the higher, easier veriosn of it or something. Wow, I'm so excited. Last night I was all depresso and feeling apart from the Lord, so I just randomly thought, I'm gonna play the guitar! Yay. And I was practicing until like 11.00pm. hehe, its so fun, I think I'm doing it all wrong and everything, but it doesn't matter because I'm enjoying myself and feeling a bit happier!

Whatever happens, happens. Don't worry.
This is my new motto that I'm going to try and live by from now on.
Matthew 6:25-34, compliments of Luke, who inspired this.

The 3 L's: Love, Life and the Lord

hmmm. i feel like blogging. Life has been, well, how can i describe it? Strange, really lately. I dunno, everything just seems so surreal. And sometimes things seem to fly by, then other times it goes so slowly. I'm confused about things (but then again when am i ever not?) I feel apart from God, i don't know why but I just do. Lord come close to me again. My friends seem differnet, some of them have just changed. People I think I know turn around and suddenly say things and do things that are entirley not them. And I don't know whats happened. Did I do somthing? How can things change so quickly? In a split second my life is different. And new friends. I never thought I would feel closer to them, people I have only known for a few months, than my friends I have known for years. I don't know if I feel accepted in the group. The guys seem to accept me, yes, the girls are close to it, but I dunno, there's just something there. I'm not totally in yet. Maybe it's just a girl thing. Hmmm..so many decisions I have to make. I mean what really is my life? It seems to fly by. New additions come and go as they please. Think back to my primary school days. What mattered? My hair, my friends, my schoolwork? I wasn't a Christian. God didn't matter. My friends, my best friend, Bianca. 2 years later and she's all gone. It's like she's a mist, she just floated away into the breeze but I can still sense her. We were going to be friends forever we said, we'd see each other every weekend. I haven't seen her in a year. I miss her. But I know things can never be the same. I drifted away from my Mimosa friends group to my Roseville group. I only just realised I feel close to half of my group at school. The others don't know me. They can never know me. And now Church, the Church group is getting stronger. I'm so close to being fully accepted I can smell it. I love it. I love God. I love Jesus. I love Church. I love evangelism. I love my friends. I have so many things. Yet I constantly want more. Is just a human fault or is it me? If I ever acheive what I want, will i be happy? Or will I forget about that thing and want more? So many questions, so little answers. I love him, or do I? Do I know what love is? Why are people so mean? The truth is so harsh, sheltering myself from finding it out from him will make what I know is inevitable less painful. People pronounce it, because they know my weaknessess and use it against me. They know what I fear most, and so they say it. They tease me with it. "Get over it Beth" or "He'll never love you Beth" or "You're worthless Beth" Am I? Do I believe it? Can I believe what people tell me? Who can I believe? No-one. Humans cannot be trusted. I can believe Jesus. But its so hard, I feel he's not always there. Everythings so hard. I have to evaluate some things and some people. How important are they to me? How important is my life to me? Sure its life and I have to accept it. But sometimes I just wish it was all over. I wish my final destination was reached and I could live in harmony with God in heaven for all of eternity.

ahhh. im so frustrated and confused.
im sick of it
finish! be over already!
today, shrek 2. then lunch. younger brother and mum. he threw a milkshake at me. fun.
im cold.
im so sad.
the depression is coming on.
y is she so mean?
i like him, i really like him.
i dont like it one bit
is this what it's supposed to feel like?
No.
Unrequited.
Yes.
Then I am destined to be like this forever.
or am i?
or is it?
why can't life have simple communicaton, simple rules, simple happiness?

Luke, T1 and Monty the Cheerleaders...

Hey i just realised, that today, while the guys were trying to get the swing down, they achieved a very good cheerleading pyramid, known 2 MelissaNSC as an elevator. Hav a look at the pic of it, and change it to T1 and Luke struggling on the bottoms next 2 a swing, and Monty on top fiddling with the swing chain. Hehe, it was funny. Now there's a Kodak moment 4 you. Isn't it a shame we didn't have that camera on us...
They would have made good cheerleaders...
Shame really
Haha

Just Me And The Guys....

Well today I spent the majority of my day on a fun journey with Monty, T1 and Luke. Just me and the guys...
It started off with Monty and Luke doing a very bongled organisation of the day. Luke messaging people, but then his phone dying before anyone could reply, and then e-mailing people in the library at 12.00 saying come and have lunch with us at 12.30, Great, jsut great. They arrived at my house about 12.15 to pick me up and we then journeyed to T1's house and picked him up, all the while Luke and Monty gleefully showed me how they had started an eventually unsuccessful game of 'The Soap Game' (starting off with soap and swapping it with people for somthing of equal or greater value) They had got a little pot of, well, pot. Naa not really, it was Chinese Tea leaves, but it sure looked and smelt like pot! The game ended here seeing as no-one wanted 2 swap it for anything. So we ventured to the park behind the Church (this is where people were 'sposed to meet, but no-one showed up) Tom wasn't in the Church Centre, so he missed out on our wonderfully nutritious lunch, which consisted of little packets of chips, bread and sunkist and lemonade. We sat on the seesaw which wasn't a very good choice, but it sure ws funny 2 be on, seeing as all of our stuff was knocked around.
I felt like 'one of the guys' as we sat there, burping after drinking and all, talking about such things as, weight, drugs and alcohol, including where is the best place 2 stash it, and funny drug stories, which included people who called up the police because some1 stole their marijuana plants, and we then moved on to the most painful way we've hurt ourselves, and Luke showed us his war scars. Luke and I had pretty much the best pain stories, which was nails through both of his feet and a rusty nail straight through my hand (we all know THAT story...) while T1 sat there wincing in pain at what we had gone through. Haha. We then saw Helen drive up, and we all came and had a nice chat with her. It's great to have her back. I missed her :)
We then proceeded to go to the swings, where Monty swung the swing around the pole so it was really high up, and then swung on it, shame we didn't have a camera on us. It was quite a funny scene. But trying 2 get it down was the real effot. All Luke acheived was getting the swing up much higher, and getting it tangled around the bolt. So the guys spent the next 20 minutes attempting to get this swing down back to its normal level, while I stood there laughing.
We chatted some more, then Luke asked the time, and once again he had to rush off, and he nearly missed his bus. He's getting quite a rep with me now...
Monty and T1 then walked me home, while we amused ourselves by kicking the empty Sunkist bottle in front of us. It eventually went on the road, and a car was coming along and T1 kicked it straight at the car by accident. It was quite funny.
But yeh, that was my day.
Did i mention it was quite cold?

Le Deux

Well, this is mi poem. Just as it is. Just me. If you like it, that's great. If you don't like it, then well, it's your choice. Enjoy.

Never let me go.
My heart yearns for you.
You make me so happy,
you make my world spin.

There's something in your smile,
makes my heart beat fast.
There's something in your eyes,
that sends chills down my spine.
There's something in your voice,
makes my heart sing strong.

If you knew how much I wanted you to love me.
You'd never be the same.

I feel at home with you,
I'm lost when you're not near.
Life is not worth living,
if it is without you.

My love for you is so powerful,
it takes my breath away.
My love is so strong,
it can move mountains.

I've waited so long for your touch,
I never thought I'd love anyone
just this much.

Where I belong is in your arms,
and you in mine.
Kiss me, hug me;
I want to lose myself in you.

My love is everlasting.
You call, or we talk,
and my heart sings.

Ever since I met you,
my life has changed.
What I want most;
I can't have.

Wherefore art thou?
My Romeo is near;
but to you I am not your Juliet.

My signals you cannot see,
the darkness has engulfed me.
I need your light and protection,
but we are lost from each other.

If it was this easy to find you,
I should be ready for a fall.

Like a bird I keep on flying;
searching for you, making you strong.
You never know when you might have to fly.
Will you go after me?

The person I once was, is gone.
Love has taken me.
My true love;
is gone.
Flown away,
to another nest.

I can't believe I posted that...private thoughts on the internet.
oh gosh.

Big Groups and Poems

2day I went 2 see Shrek 2 with the massivest group eva. We had....(ok this may take a while and I apologise if i 4get ne1!) Luke, Joel, Tim McCloud, Tim Buckley, Monty, Bec, Nat, Jodie, Ash Bennet, Megan, Gemma, Hannah W and me and I 4get the otha person that makes it 14!! Ooops...
So neway we saw Shrek 2. It was soooo good, realli funni!! I suggest every1 see it. Basically everyone was late, T1 told everyone the meeting time was 12.00 and Monty told everyone it was 12.30, which was really good! So half of us were there at 12.00 and waiting around 4 half an hour, and the others were at 12.30. 'Cept Luke and Joel, who were very late, 'cept it was because Joel (silly, silly) left his wallet back at the house and they had 2 go back and get it which took them an extra half-hour. We got food at the food court b4 the movie, and we saw Caitlin Casey and Bubs there, and Caitlin had turned goth and had bought these $430, physco ugly black and fire like combat boot thngs. It was soo crazy!!
But yeh, that was basically it. It was bad 2 see that the guys and girls didn't merge and sit next 2 each other, it was basically girls one side, guys otha (and hannah w and gemma were lonered and had 2 sit on two loner seats heaps far away behind us, and so they missed out on heaps of the food, and they were chucking 5 cent coins at us so we could give them food, but it didn't work, and all it acheived was that gemma lost one of her "prized" 5 cents - haha) so I was the only 1 who sat next 2 a guy. Shame, shame. And back 2 Luke's discussion on the whole hugging issue. No-one hugged goodbye! Well 'cept the girls, but no guys. Shame, shame again.
Apart from all those shames it was pretty good. I'm glad the 2nd movie didnt ruin the first, like Legally Blonde 2, ugh that was totally dissapointing.

I'm also just wondering 'bout whether I should post a poem that I wrote while I was away. It's called "Le Deux" (its french, not the poem, just the title) and it's basically bout unrequited love. I dunno if I should put it up, I'm not a sharing my poetry person, cuz it's private, and also people will prob. read into it, tho I spose there is sumthing 2 read into, but kinda not. I'm so confused....bout everything
2 post or not 2 post.

The Ultimate Hole, Bum Overload and "Bootstrap?!"

Canberra.
Trip was crazy.
Started off with Casey coming over a few hours before we left. She brought a bag the size of one of those carry-on make-up cases, no joke. Mum told her to pack lightly, and Casey took her seriously. Hung around for a few more hours, dreading leaving, until we eventually got a move on.
We got 5 minutes off the way, and Michael goes, "Mum, I'm hungry!! When are we going to be there?", Mum replied in a slightly annoyed tone, "Michael, we're only in Belrose!!" Casey murmurs: "Ahhhhhh, the Twilight Zone...."
So we're driving along, bout an hour into the trip and there is this big accident on the highway, so Dad decides to take a detour into this back road to get around the traffic. But unfortunatley, everyone else had the same idea, so we were all stuck in traffic in the back streets of "Lebanon" as Mum called it (it was actually Chullora, which is basically occupied bi Lebanese people) Dad was getting really impatient. It was veerry funny. All of the neighbours were coming outside to see what was going on. Here is a dialogue that actually happened that Casey and I created after:

A recipe for a dysfunctional family:
Take two young, physco, farting boys, two uncontrollably argumentative parents, and one cheerleader, put them into a car for 5 hours and you have Beth's dysfunctional family. Add KC into the mix and you've got hell!
Driving through the streets of Lebanon:
Boys: "Fart, Fart. Who pulled my hair? Muuum, Callum's farting again! I'm hungry!"
Dad: Look, now we're off the way! A half an hour wait now!! I'll jsut drive up onto the sidewalk so I can get one car ahead!"
Mum: Don't you dar you impatient man! You're setting a bad example to the kids! Calm down! Caaalllm down!"
Beth: (clapping) Be aggressive, be, be, aggressive!
Casey: (singing) We're all going on a (clap) summer holiday!
Everyone: Shutup Casey!!

After we escaped the clutches of the evil "Lebanon" and everyone had calmed down after all the excitement, Casey got a message on her fone. It was from Barney (aka. Adrian, KC's bro) The message read: Where are you? KC replied by saying: Canberra you loser! He actually didn't know where she was! Haha. That's Barney 4 ya!
And we played "Eye Spy with my big, fat, pussy, bleeding eye" which was SO MUCH FUN!! Not!!!

After we arrived in Canberra we drove into our accomodation which was "Carotel Motel" which was this really shotty, hole of a place, and I ran into our "Villa House" (2 bedrooms, a loungeroom and a toilet/bathroom, all crammed into like 20 square metres) and started screaming "It's a hole! Hole! Canberra's a hole!" While Mum got increasingly annoyed at me! Haha.
So Mum, Dad and the boys decided to go out 4 a ride, 2 start the training 4 the competiton that was on on Saturday. So KC and I were left alone. 1 TV station, no radio, all alone, 2 degrees, no food, surviving on gum, bored out of our MINDS, KC found blood on the floor and we were teriffied, and we had no civilisation apart from my mobile phone. We were in a desperate situation until Luke called mi mobile and saved us! Well me at least. KC was lonered. :p Haha. Luke and I talked 4 an hour (actually 43mins 59secs according 2 mi fone) and it was a great relief from mi boredom! Thankyou Luke! Haha, only I feel bad about the money issue. That's gonna b a big phone bill 4 Luke! Whoops!
We went out 4 dinner at Zefferelli's pizza place. It was 2 degrees outside and we saw a girl in a mini-skirt!! When we were walking 2 the restaurant, KC and I were threatening 2 scream out such stuff as, "Canberra's a hole, Sydney rox!" and "Why did they put a fence around Canberra? So people wouldn't fall in!" But Mum stopped us. Shame really. Haha. The only good thing about Canberra, might I just add, is that it has sooo many bums!! (aka. hobos, homeless people) I love bums! I think they r soo cool! And all the bums at Canberra stand at the traffic lights and wash ur windscreen 4 money. They r soo cool. Mi fave one had orange scraggly hair and a fag in his mouth. He walked right up 2 and past our car as well. Gosh that got us excited. U know I don't actually know anyone who doesn't like bums. Mi family (minus mum and dad) like bums, and mi group at school. hehe. 'Cept maybe hannah, she was chased bi one. But really, Canberra has the coolest bums!!
Might i add, Casey and I had 2 share a room with both of my brothers, and the snoring was terrible!! What is it with guys...

Next day Mum wanted us 2 go site-seeing. Oh yay!! We had 2 go to War Memorial first. And we had a 2 and a 1/2 hour tour, with this 85 year old lady. Mum enjoyed it, but no-one else did. I had soo many SMS's while I was in there, and i eventually had to turn mi fone on silent becuase Mum said i was being "disrespectful". Next we had 2 go to Parliment House. Wow, how lucky are we, two of the most boring places in earth right after each other. Once again, Mum wanted us 2 have the tour, because if we don't we "don't learn anything" Mi god, that wouldn't be good would it! It's called a holiday!! We're not 'sposed 2 learn! So Casey and I were waiting 4 the tour in this foyer place at the top of the marble staircase, and we saw all these school groups go past, and we started calling out all this stuff 2 them like, "Don't worry, it'll all be over soon", "We feel your pain!" and "Hang in there, you'll soon be out of this hole!" The kids and us exchanged thumbs up, but we got many-a greasys from the school teachers!! Haha
We had a "pretending Casey was one of the family" day. :D
Mel came over 2 nite. Seeing as she was passing through from Sussex 2 the Snow, and she came and visited! And she found out that Mitch was gonna be here (he was staying next 2 us, he's mi famous cycling cuz whom she is obsessed with) and we were sitting outside talking (even tho it was bout 3 degrees) and we organised 4 Mitch 2 come ova afta he finished dinner. 'Cept Alexe came and picked Mel up and literally 2 minutes after she left Mitch came!! It was soo funny! And he's got a really cool new haircut!

The next day was the first day of "The ACT State (which doesn't really make any sense becuase ACT isn't a state) Road Championships" Veerry boring. The only good thing bout it was that we were literally surrounded by hot, half-naked, muscly cyclists in lcyra!! Haha. There was this one guy who kept on laughing at mi brothers. Ha. Don't blame him, they were being pretty stupid. Callum went alright (15th and 18th) but he has lots of competiton in his divison. Michael went really well (2nd and 3rd) The trip there was the funny bit. It's about a 40min drive from our hole hotel, and when we got there, Dad tried 2 park, and he backed right into this ditch thingo, and then we were stuck, and he tried 2 get out, and all this smoke was coming from the back of the car, then the exhaust blew up and this big fireball of grass shot out and we got out of the ditch. It was funny enuf (espescially since everyone was looking!) except that he DID IT TWICE!! Haha. That's mi Dad 4 u.
2nite we went out 2 dinner at ElDerado's and towards the end of the meal, Dad was eating slices of oranges and lemons, and when he ate them, he'd rocket back and make this weird face expression and sounds, and this was called his "Power Boost". It was so funny! He nearly knocked over a waiter! We milked it 4 all its worth, and made him have about 20 "Power Boosts"
When we got home Mum made us go to bed early because the boys had "big day ahead of them" and everyone was in bed and asleep (minus KC and I) by 8.30!! So obviously KC and I couldn't sleep. There were all these phsyco loud teenagers from the NSW soccer team or sumthing running around outside cuz they were staying here too. And KC had a window next 2 her bed that looked outside. So KC and I were sitting there watching the kids outside through the window, and we were waiting 4 sum of them 2 go past so we could say "Pssst..Hey Kid come here!" and when they came over Casey wanted to say - "Apple?!...." and "Bootstrap?!" Haha, mi gosh it was funni. We got pretty close 2 acheiving our goal. But KC stuffed it up in the end. :P

Next day was the last day of competitons, and Callum got another 11th and he got a 2nd, but they disqualified all the riders, becuase of what one group did. It was a very controversial decision, and a bit complicated, but yeh, basically that was counted as a no race, so Callum didn't get his silver medal.
Michael got two more 3rd places, and he came 3rd overall, he got 2 ACT State Champ medals (both bronze) and $40 prize money. Mitch came 4th overall, and got a MUCH bigger amount of money!!
Uncle Warren once again displayed how obsessed he was with setting me up with guys (everytime he comes over he says stuff like, "So do you have a boyfriend?" and "Why haven't I met your boyfriend"?) by saying, "Oooo, Beth, any guys take you fancy? It's a great place 2 look 4 a boyfriend. There's lots of cute half-naked cyclists here (scary that he was thinking what i was! haha (last part tho) )" Ahhh...he's a lost cause that one.
We passed our friend the bum, but Mum wouldn't let him wash our car! :(

Finally we were going home!!!! Michael asked if "We were going back to Australia now?" It was basically a pretty boring trip seeing as all of our Discmans had conked out. I spent most of the trip asleep. Nice interval of Delta music that I enjoyed singing along 2 at the top of my voice. Gotta luv Delta. Constant bickering in the car tho. Espescially towards the end. We were ALL glad 2 get home!!
And guess where the first place i went when I got home was?
The computer.....

A strange trip in the ultimate capital hole of Australia (ironic actually), filled with bums, bootstraps and high tempers.

Blogging off,
Beth

Damn Blogger

Well, blogger is FINALLY working! Well apart from the fact that mi two tester posts below won't delete!! Argh! I've had it up 2 here with this damn blogger! First it won't open mi blog,then it won't open others blogs, then it won't publish posts, even tho it says they r published, then it won't delete them!! I am so over computers not doing what they r told! Well, long story short I'm back from Canberra!!! I used mi fone like I have never b4!! I had 6 calls and recieved 30 SMS's and sent the same in reply :D All this in 3 days. Mi folks r gonna kill me wen they find out!! Overall the trip, was well, crazy. It was funny, cold, boring, everything! But I'll do a long Canberra blog lata.
Moving on, tomorrow. Tomorrow I am going 2 see Shrek 2 with Luke, Joel, Tim McCloud (T1), Nat, Ash Baker, Ash Bennet, Jodie, Gemma, Hannah Wiseman and Bec Baines. That's a lot 'o people. Should be fun. Anyway, I betta move on and start this Canberra post cuz its prob. gonna take a while.

Don't u just love Pete Murray? His voice is so...sexy
Gosh I love Pete Murray

Blogging off,
Beth

Happy Birthday Aunty Cathy!

Happy Birthday Aunty Cathy! Even thought you always 4get my birthday, and Mum forgot yours this year, I remembered! It was on my calender! So I decided to give you a special Happy Birthday Blog like I did for Luke.  HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!