11 hours till I have 2 go to Canberra. Noooooo....
Mum forced me 2 pack this ugly flourescent ski jumper. It's 2 degrees there right now. Brilliant. Just Brilliant.

The Torture of Canberra

Hey, I hav2 go to Canberra tomorrow. I sooo don't want to! It'll be cold, and boring, seeing as I have to go there because of mi brothers cycling competiton. Sure, Casey's coming, and that some consolation, but I am still dreading going. It's a hole, i really hate Canberra! So I won't be able 2 blog 4 5 whole days, or go on MSN or nething. The only contact I will hav with the outside world is mobile phone. So everyone who has mi number must SMS me so that I can be saved from boredom! This is my plea to everyone.

Well, today. Today was a pretty boring day. I mainly slothed around and did nothing. Fun Fun. I watched this random movie on Movie1 called "Frailty" about this random family that goes around and kills "demons", actual people who have done nothing wrong, but the father says that they have and that God has given him this list of "demons" to hunt down and kill. It is very random. But it's not that bad actually. Just really creepy.

So overall mi day was pretty average. 'Cept 4 two people, who I won't name (u know who u r) who were being bitches 2 me (1 more than the other, but it was still mean) Doesn't matter if they don't go through with it, it is still mean. And I'm upset that you guys could do that.
And thats all I hav 2 say
Bloggin off,
Beth

p.s 2 see Luke's long john's click here - they r seriously funni and freaky!

Non-Existent Coffee :)

Luke and I got 2getha 4 a nice chat this arvo at Glenrose. We went 2 tha coffee place. 'Cept I was sooooo full that I couldn't eat or drink nething. So Luke was left 2 hav coffee bi himself. Han and KC joined us 4 'bout 10 mins, then had 2 go home. Han kept on giving very unsubtle hints, and Bianca... ok maybe I should stop here. Neway, it was nice. :D Good talk, good company.
The 45 mins went quite quickly and b4 long we were walking back towards Mimosa and Davo and the bus stop, 'cept Luke had 2 run 4 the bus. Hope I didnt' make him miss it. Oops. I had 2 detour 2 pick up mi little bro.
I'm glad we finally got sum time 2 talk (bi the way I'm talking bout Luke not mi bro - i get too much time with him!) outside of all the technological communication devices. :) We should do it more often. Fun Fun.
Blogging off,
Beth

p.s we hav sold our first Speedo Joel merchandise! :D Luke's long john's. haha, they r the funniest thing u could possibly eva see!

Hobos and Frantic Pizza Callings

Ok, I had a pretty good day 2day. It started with both Hannah and Casey being very late 2 arrive at mi house. Hannah missed her first bus and was stranded at Chatswood while some hobo chased her round saying "Help me find my family! I've lost them!" Haha, would only happen 2 Hanni....
Casey, being the lazy bum she is, slept in and didn't get round 'till 10.30! We had 2 giv her a wake up call. And we pranked her house and left a message on the answering machine saying, "Hello, this is Dr. Al-Ka-Sher-Ba from the pregnancy clinic, and we have Mr. B Hinde's test reults. (KC's bro) Could you please call back as soon as possibe on 9451 8117. Thanks!"
Once both parties arrived, we basically did, well nuthing!! We had the music up very loud tho. Taking full advantage of Foxtel digital by using their new radio channels. :D And we went onto sum randoms blog and told him Casey wanted 2 go out with him. And we successfully managed 2 cut off a lock of Casey's hair!! Excellent...
Then came the infamous pizzas....

We decided 2 order pizzas, and Hannah called up hoping 2 speak 2 Dougie, but she got sum random ass lady, who said, "That will be $17.20. Thanks! Bye!" And hung up, while we stood there baffled, because it was only 'sposed 2 be $14.95 and we didn't have enuf money. So we spent the next half an hour trying 2 figure out how 2 get $2 (possible solutions - sell lemonade, sell hannahs fone, beg, busk, ask pizza guy 2 let us off $2 because our dog had died and finally, to sell casey) Eventually I just put in sum of mi Noumea money. SO neway, the pizza guy was realli late, and Casey goes, "Wouldn't it be funni if your Mum came home right now!" She jinxed it!! Then about 2 seconds later, mi Mum drove down the driveway, while the pizza guy was following the car (we weren't realli allowed 2 order pizza we don't think) So we're like "Shit, she's home!" And KC and Hanni ran into mi room 2 hide, and so i went outside 2 face the music, and the pizza guy had disappeared!! Like totally vanished. So Mum had come home from school just 2 put out the washing, and we were offering 2 help her, 2 get her out of the house quickly, but she wouldn't let us. She ended up going tho! Finally! We got away with it! So the pizzas STILL hadn't arrived and there was the mystery of the missing pizza dude. We could hear his motorbike in the background. So Hanni called up the lady 2 complain. And she's like "Blah, Blah, Blah, I don't care!" and so we hung up, and then the doorbell rang and it was the pizza guy, and to Hanni's dismay, he wasn't hot. He was like 60 and ugly! He denied he got lost when KC asked him, but we think he was lying just 2 save face! :P So we ate our pizzas, forcing ourselves to eat 5 pieces each!! Ahhh, we were like bursting!!
So that was mi fun day with KC and Hanni! :O
We had fun and we were doing nuthing! Yay!
Dats what friends r 4...

Some good advice here from Luke:

.. sumtimes I wonder if anyone will eva luv me... but then i remember that god is there, and thats got to count for a heck of a lot... and he also has a plan for who i will end up with, my dad prays for them every night, i think i should too... its exciting to know (or not know rather) whats installed for me... all i know is that there is no way it will not be good... sure there will be hard times where i feel like giving up, but in the long run it will be worth it...

sumtimes I wonder if anyone will eva luv me...

Bible Verses

just sum cool bible verses i've found in mi reading:
(even tho right now im just reading acts)
Mark 11: 24-25
1 John 4: 8-10 (this is 1 of mi faves out of he lot :D)
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
Hebrews 11: 1 (and this 1 as well :D)
Hebrews 11: 39-40 (actually all the verses 1-40 r cool, but these r he best of the lot)
Joel 2: 31-32
James 1: 19-22

sure, these aren't very "inspiring" or wateva, but i like them :D they're nice.
Well that's mi 2 cents!
Cheerio!
Beth

sumtimes i wonder, how can u define a friend?
i mean sumtimes u just say, oh yeh so and so is mi friend, yet u've only ever really spoken to them once or twice
or you call someone ur "friend" just because you want 2 be associated with them.
how well do you hav 2 know sum1 to categorise them as a friend, or even a good friend?
im so confused
what really is a friend?

Dancing, Food Poisining and God Time

I hav a lot 2 blog about. I kept on thinking, "this is a bloggable thought" but I couldn't realli blog seeing as Gemma was here. Hannah bailed out on me and dind't come ova becuase she got food poisining from eating sum random deep-fried carrot ball. Silly, silly. She knows not 2 eat random weirdo food when ur waitressing. Tsk. Tsk. So that helped accentuate mi depressed mood. I got Gem 2 come ova so I could mask the sadness. It came back of course. Always does. This time in Church. I was singing and i felt this overwhelming sadness come over me, because the music made me think about stuff, and i didn't want 2, i just wanted it 2 be me and God, no-one else, but I couldn't help it, and it was weird because i felt so sad I couldn't stand any more, and I sat down and just prayed and cried a bit (but not so much so that evry1 would notice) and God helped and when I got up I still felt a bit sad but better, and it was just me and God this time so all those thoughts could get out of mi head 4 a while. It was good.

But Dance was fun. Gem and I rocked up and Pip L and Jodie and Nat and Ash were there and they had a table and they had bought lunch, so we joined in, they had tinned pears, crackers, vita-weats, philadelphia cream cheese, yoghurt, plain chips, and caramel tim-tams. It was yummi, 'cept it made dancing hard!! The dance was majorly complicated. I dunno how I am eva gonna get it!! Ahhh... And we spent a lot of the time rolling into each otha, funni, but we were paying 4 it afta with lots of pain!! I'm so physced about doing this dance at EBN next term! Yay.
Nite Church was cool. Well apart from the aforementioned incident, but y'know that got betta as well. Luke and I got more talking time than we usually do so that was good :D

Sucked in 2 every1 who had 2 go to skool 2day. I went and saw 'Mean Girls' with Bubs, Loz, Hanni, Casey and Jess. it was quite good actually, realli funni. Im getting the DVD off Julia, along with 'Secret Window' (REALLI good, 1 of mi new fave movies, i suggest every1 see it) and 'Honey' (nutha good movie, but prolly just 4 tha girls, or guys who wanna perve on the half-naked girls in the movie and r into hip-hop...weird :D) So yeh, that was mi Sunday and 2day.
Blogging off, Beth

p.s I'm so excited bout what Gemma told me last nite!! Ahhhh....

Im feeling a bit down 2day
The other nite's problem is coming back to haunt me
I had a good cry about it and the next morning I felt much better but now it's bad again
My moods keep on shifiting
I was realli happi last nite
I dunno, I just feel so alone
Han was 'sposed 2 come and sleepova 2day but she's sick
and I invited Gemma but I'm not exactly sure she wants 2 come
Ahhh, I can't stop feeling sad
I know exactly what would stop the sadness
but what I want I know now that I can never have.

What The Movies Teach Us

What the Movies Teach Us:
Now these r funni...(and so true)

--> During police investigations, it will be necessary to visit a strip club at least once.

--> When they are alone, all foreigners prefer to speak English

--> All telephone numbers in America begin with the digits 555

--> All beds have a special "L" shaped sheet that reaches armpit level on a woman, but only waist level on the man beside her.

--> All grocery shopping bags contain at least one loaf of French bread

--> Most dogs are immortal

--> It's easy for anyone to land a plane providing there is someone in the control tower to talk you down

--> The ventilation system of any building is the perfect hiding place. No one will ever think to look for you in there and you can travel to any other part of the building with no difficulty.

--> If you need to reload your gun, you will always have ammunition, even if you haven't carried a gun until now.

--> You're very likely to survive any battle of any war unless you make the mistake of showing someone the picture of your sweetheart back home.

--> Should you wish to pass yourself off as a German officer, it will not be nescasry to speak the language, Even a bad German accent will do.

--> The Eiffel Tower can be seen from any window in Paris

--> A man will show no pain while taking the most ferocious beating, but will wince when a woman washes his hands

--> If a large pane of glass is visible, someone will be throw through it before long.

--> When paying for a taxi, don't look at your wallet when you take out the bill, just grab one at random, it will always be the exact fare.

--> Kitchens don't have light switches. When entering the kitchen at night, just open the fridge door and use that light instead

--> When staying in a haunted house, women should investigate scary noises in their most intimate underwear

--> Word processors will never display a cursor on the screen, but always say: Please enter password

--> The Chief of Police will always dismiss his best detective, or give him 48 hours to finish the job

--> Cars that crash will almost always burst into flames

--> A single match will be enough light up a room as big as RFK stadium

--> Medieval peasants had perfect teeth

--> Any person waking from a nightmare will bolt up and pant

--> It is not nessacary to say hello or good-bye in phone conversations

--> Even when driving down a perfectly straight road, it is nessacary to turn the steering wheel right and left every few moments

--> All bombs are fitted with an electronic timing device with large red readouts so you know exactly when they are going to go off

--> It is always possible to park in front of any building you want to visit at any time of day

--> A detective can only solve a case once he has been suspended from duty

--> If you decide to start dancing in the middle of the street, everyone you bump into will know all the steps

--> Most laptop computers are powerful enough to override any invading aliens communication system

--> It does not matter if you are heavily outnumbered in a fight involving martial arts, your enemies will patiently attack you one by one after dancing around you in threatening manner until you have knocked out their proceeders

--> When a person is knocked unconscious by a blow to the head, they will never suffer a concussion or brain damage

--> Police Departments give their officers personality tests to pair them up with someone who is their exact opposite

--> You can always find a chain saw when you need one

--> Any lock can be picked with a credit card or paper clip in seconds, unless it's the door to a burning building with a child trapped inside

--> An electric fence powerful enough to kill a dinosaur will cause no lasting damage to an eight year old child

--> TV bulletins usually contain a story that affects you personally at that precise moment it comes on.

now wasn't that good?can always find a chain saw when you need one

--> Any lock can be picked with a credit card or paper clip in seconds, unless it's the door to a burning building with a child trapped inside

--> An electric fence powerful enough to kill a dinosaur will cause no lasting damage to an eight year old child

--> TV bulletins usually contain a story that affects you personally at that precise moment it comes on.

now wasn't that good?

-

i just found out sumthing that ruined mi day
thats great isn't it
now im all depressed
ahhh and i can't say nething in a blog or nething
i feel numb
ahhh, i hav so much pain in mi life i should be used 2 it bi now
damn me

~ Schools Out, Give A Shout ~

Well today was one of the best days I've had in a long, long while. Last days of term always are! And Mel always misses them! She hasn't been there 4 1 4 like the past yr. Oh, well her loss.

The day started of with artt with Criddy, where we were forced to clean up, Han and I turned the radio up REAL loud and danced around until she screamed at us to stop, but we ignored her neway! Then afta we'd finished wiping the benches, we had 2 clean out the art cupboard which like hasn't been cleaned since 1985. We complained about doing it so now she's giving us all (Han, Gem and I) a Killer Python Gummi Snake. Mmmmm... bribing with lollies always works! So we were cleaning out this closet, and we closed the door behind us, and its like a mini claustrophobic room, and we saw that the window was bricked up so we were scared that Simba and Hammy and Criddy were gonna brick us in so we opened it again :D Han proceeded 2 pick things up off the ground with pliers, and we pulled at this piece of string 4 ages until we realised it was in a big roll. Criddy came 2 see how we were going and she got her feet tangled up in all the string and didn't know and was walking around the room like a lunatic with all this yellow string around her feet, it ended up falling off, but man we were shitting ourselves laughing 4 a long time there!

Next up was Maths, and as a "treat" as Mr.Ryan put it we watched the "Right-Angled Triangle" video. Traumatising stuff really. 4 any of u Roseville girls out there, that includes ur Rach, u should know exactly wat I'm talking about. 4 others, just try and imagine this crazy lady, with 80's clothes (think puffy cuffs) and permed hair. A high-pitched voice and MASSIVE eyes, banging on a triangle singing - "Right Angled Triangle, Right Angled Triangle, equals the square of the hypotonuse...." It is soooo scary and funni. Oh, and I once again tripped ova Mr. Ryan. oops :P

Den we had morning tea, and there was a cake stall, and a MASSIVE line 4 Krispy Kreme donuts. Slaves were sold, and most of them went 4 about $30 (rip-off!) but Batsey sold 4 $50!! Walking back to our spot we saw many Year 12's giving piggy-backs to their "masters" and crawling down the Hinemoa stairs. Crazy. We had to clean-up during Tutor Time and I finally got to swap lockers with Shannon (grr....) so now I am TOP LOCKER!!!!! woooooo......

Then we had Science, we did this sheet with tests 4 our eyes, to see blind spots and stuff, and we had 2 try and trace around a star by only looking in a mirror. It's harder than it seems! but it was fun. Then Annie and I proceeded 2 have leg fights bi swinging on the lab desks,a nd running around screaming and jumping ova chairs. Good 'ol Mrs. Hallet let us have our fun :D Then Annie ran out of the class and came back with a balloon and blew it up and it was really long and fat, so we played with it then decided 2 call it "Annie and Beth's End of Term Eggplant" and we got everyone 2 sign it. It was majorly cool!

In English we watched the end of Baz Lhurman's Romeo and Juliet, which mite I say is really crap. It's got Leo DiCrappio as Romeo, so all ur thinking about is Titanic the whole time, he even smokes like Titanic, speaks like Titanic, draws like Titanic, swims like Titanic and looks cold like Titanic. Man it's like a copy. And why, may i ask, is Mercutio a cross-dresser?! That neva happened in the play. It's a totally retarded movie. But we got 2 see Hammy's new haircut which is totally hanous!! It is short and bob-ish and is lighter brown and she has a fringe, its so unco! Han and I had 2 stifle our laughter wen she walked past and we saw her 4 the first time this morning.

Lunch started with us waiting in a line 4 like an hour, only 2 find out it was the drink line, and then we had 2 wait in a mosh pit of a line (u couldn't even really classify it as a line!) 4 another 15mins 2 get our sausage!! We were suffocated!! When we got back 2 the locker rooms, we found out that the list 4 who got into Middle School Performing Arts was up!! AND WE GOT IN!!!!!! We were so damn excited! Because hardly anyone got in!! And we did! Wow! And we beat Amelia and Lucy, they didn't even get in, and they thought they totally would, and they r pretty good. But they were sooo pissed with us that we got in and they didn't and they were crying and everything, and bitching about us and giving us greasys as well, but i didn't care because I was so happy. And then Sian and Kelly were annoyed because Amelia and Lucy wanted 2 be in their dance and they didn't want 2 (because they got in) and they were sooo pissed. And Kim Asjberg didn't get in!! haha....and she had a physco and started bitching bout Jen and Millie's group that got in and I told them so they were angry at Kim and Kim was crying that she sisn't get in and everything. It was soo hilarious. And we went 2 tell our group, and they were having this full-on God discussion and didn't want 2 listen 2 us, and they were totally oblivious 2 everything going on around them! haha

So now.....Cheerleading with Melissa NSC what 2 say. She's a freak. She was feeling espescially bitchy 2day, and we were trying 2 learn an Elevator stunt, which is a promotion from our usual boring Thigh Stand and it is really hard 2 do (the elevator) and i had sum1's foot in mi face and it was killing me and I was collapsing under her weight, and she's like u two (Han and I who were the bases) leave and let's get 2 other bases. We were like "Fine! Bitch!" It was quite mean. She totally hates us. We got her 2 sign our eggplant balloon, and she gave us a weird look, but did it neway, and she wrote - "Cheer hard or go home, Coach Mel" What a weird message! And she attempted 2 draw this pic of a cheer person. It was funni. And she did more cheers 4 us - haha. "Push that ball, push that ball!" So yeh, that's our freako coach. I am now in so much pain from having people constantly stepping on me 4 2 hours straight, being base and all. But we combined our stunt stuff, by having a group on the outside doing thigh stand, middle doing elevator, other side doing thigh stand, and we all connected it together so it is like 1 big pyramid, and then we took a pic. :D I'll put it on the blog once I get it. But it's pretty cool. We look like we're really good.

But yeh, that was my day. It was pretty fun. I got mi report we I came home and I'm really happi :D They rank us out of all the people who take the subject and 4 English I came 1st out of 107 (1/107), Maths Advanced - 42/59 (so that was relativley shit, thats because the exam was realli hard and i shitted it up!!) Science - 29/104, CCG - 52/104 (haha - hate CCG!!!) CCH - 7/105, French - 3/25 (yay - worked hard 4 that 1 - we had 4 exams 4 half-yearly 4 the 1 subject!!) History - 2/66 ( I was No.1 for 1/2 hour, then Ai Lyn came and said "U didn't read mi last paragraph of the extended response", so she got an extra mark, and beat me bi half a mark! grrr.....) Visual Arts - 6/32
Oh and Mrs. Smart (CS) said I should "be more forthright in sharing mi ideas" which is absolute bull!! I always share mi ideas, its just because no1's listening 2 me, so when jess is presenting an argument, its usually mine, and im whispering next 2 her telling her what 2 say!! Ahhhh......that is sooo annoying!!

Well i betta go and start doing stuff B4 small group! Wow, that was prob. the longest blog I've eva done!!
Bloggin off,
Beth

"The Huge" and Erotic Tales

Mrs. Smart once again decided to share with us her "extensive" knowledge of The Bible, by describing the book - "Song of Songs" as an erotic and pleasurable book that she suggests we read. So Jess, being interested as she always is, opened up to it and starting laughing at such verses as - "Your breasts are perfect; like twin deer feeding among lilies (Song of Songs 4:5)" And she comes up and says to Jess, "No Jess, that's for holiday reading only" Hahah...what is she on?

SO now we r in Civics Geography, one of the worst possible subjects, and we have to research holes. I am doing Cooma, NSW and it is the biggest hole in the world. I ashamed that it is to be associated with our state. They are rapidly losing their population, and you know what they have done to try and get people back? OK, wait for it! Opened a Llama Farm!! I am dead serious. These people are freaks. Mrs. Huge (aka. Mrs. Hughes) is "patrolling" She thinks I'm working, but how dumb is she - she never thinks to look down to mi minimised windows. So, so stupid. Haha, and MR. CASH has come in! He is like this physco butch stdent PDHPE teacher. He's a freak and annoying. And he follows Mrs. B around all the time. Ahh, the "Roseville Big Brother" people are wtahcing me!

And ASHLEY WACHMAN just walked past- she is mi stalkers sister. His name is Nick and he's really scary and he has bright orange hair. Mel and I met him at Lake Maquarie and he became obsessed with me. He would stand outside our door all day, and then one time he stood outside our door from 12.00pm to 2.00am no joke. He was sooo scary!! And he asked 4 mi number as well, and I gave him a fake 1. Felt bad, but u know, I had 2. I'm experienced with dealing with stalkers. I hav had a few. Its strange. I seem to hav a knack for attracting strange, scary and stalkeresque guys!! Ahhhh.... Better b off, bells gonna go in a minute, and then I hav freedom!! yay!
Blogging off,
Beth

I just remembered the simple joy of being able to say "Ow, my face hurts from laughing so much!" :D

Late Starts and Criddy the Prostitute

Well, I had an interesting morning this morning. Nearly as bad as Howie. I 4got 2 tell mi Mum 2 wake me up at 7.15 instead of the usual 7.30, so i get woken up at 7.30, screaming "Shit, Shit, Shit, KC's 'sposed 2 pick me up at 7.25!!!" I jump out of bed, and then I see Casey walking up to my door, I'm rushing to put mi clothes on, while Mi mum is trying to put lunch in mi bag, I rush out the door, ready in a record 30 secs (no over-exaduration) I jump in KC's car half-dressed, breakfast and hair-brush thrusted into mi hand, mi half-packed bag being dragged along behind me while at the same time I am busting 2 pee and are still half asleep. It ended up that once we got 2 the bus stop our bus was 20 minutes late! So I ended up at school late anyway, and had no time 2 eat and get ready before I had 2 rush off to class! Torture, i tell you torture. Not 2 mention it was freezing!

Well, the infamous Criddy strikes again. 'Cept this time she's the FUN NAZI!! She arrives into class with her prostitute makeup on - think bright red lipstick and blue eyeshadow! (about 2 seconds after I rush in there half-ready) and has another physco at Hannah and I because we were pretendin 2 be DJ's and making lots of DJ like CD-scratching nosises -"Settle down girls!" she croaks (hahah - mission "antaginate Criddy" complete!)
Mel decides to ask WHY she named her son Bead, and then she started 2 tell us about how it was actually spelt Bede, and "NO, it IS NOT short for anything!", and how it was one of the oldest most amazingly wonderful names in history. All this while we r trying 2 stifle our laughter. Mel started to ask her if she had had a haircut and Criddy took it all wrong, and had a physco at poor Mel who was just trying 2 make convo, and threatedned 2 send her up to Dr. Kamperos office! hehehe.....

Quite an eventful day. Although I arrived home feeling sick again! :(

Radio Nazi

Ugh, tomorrow we have Art History with Criddy (mother of Bead and Darcy) the RADIO NAZI!!!!!!

hehe, i found this pic on james c's blog. haha, a bit of a laugh 4 everyone! and sooo true 4 all of us procrastinators out there!

I don't feel very well
Maybe I got it from sum1...
everyone seems 2 be getting sick lately :(

Martha Moxley Murder

I spent most of mi day watching a TV movie about the Martha Moxley murder (seeing as I woke up at about 11.00) It was sooo sad. The murder was only recently solved, 25yrs after the crime. It was narrated bi her, in the past tense. And there was present tense, the investigation and stuff, and flashbacks. And the movie ended with her saying, "I would be 42 if I was alive now, I would be married and have children of my own. Imagine that...." It really tugged at my heart strings. I almost cried, and i neva cry in movies. I suggest everyone watch it. It's called "Murder in Greenwich" You can borrow it from me if you want. Click on the link and you can find out more about Martha. I'm still sad about it. Why does murder happen? It's so - unjust. And horrible. It's hard to imagine how one split second action can change our lives forever...

The End of mi Procrastination :D

Today i finally stopped procrastinating, and i finished mi mountains of french translation h/w, maths h/w (rationalising the denominatior on binomial surds - ugh!) and i FINALLY forced miself to do the dreaded English review on the Yr 11 PLay (write a review on the play focusing on how the play's structure reflects its context and ideas) and I cleaned mi room, and did flyers 2 4 mi Health assignment. It was a massive work day. But I'm proud. Now I've finished. And I can go back to happily procrastinating in peace until once again the workload piles up too high, and I hav to do it!

Evangelism

Evangelism....hmmm, that's what I've been thinking about today. I was reading through the Bible Study stuff that Helen gave me and this word came up. And I thought, hey, maybe that can be my big word? Because, ok well I haven't really told ne1 this ('cept Mel) but I'll just say it anyway, I kinda have been feeling latley that God has been sending me to talk to people who don't believe in him, and tell them about Him, and Jesus and the Bible. Even people I don't like.

Like this girl called Jordan from Hamilton Island. I didn't really know her very well, but I didn't really like her much, but we got into conversation about God at mi Aunty Joey's wedding. And I was kinda scared of talking to this person, who I didn't even know, about God and I didn't know how she'd react, and I was scared because I didn't know what to say, but I felt God was telling me that I had to talk 2 her, so I did, and he gave me the words to say. After I got back from the island, i was led to speak to my good friend Danielle, who was very confused about Christianity, i explained it to her and about Jesus and what his death meant for us and everything. Feeling overwhelmed I set off to camp, where I was once again put into a situation where these things came up. I had a 3-hour canoe trip with someone who i didn't know on a personal level very well. Caitlin and I had a very in-depth conversation about religion. She used 2 be a Christian but had stopped because it was forced on her when she was little. Once again, I felt like it wasn't me talking, but God through me, if that makes sense? All these things came out of me that I had never even thought of myself, and i actually got through to her, when no-one else could. It was amazing. Exhilirating. And just the other week, I was was talking to my friend Jess as well. So many people has this come up with and it was like it wasn't me talking. I don't feel important enough for God to use me for anything, but yeh, I don't know how else to explain it, it felt like He was. So that's why I'm thinking maybe I'm on my way to evangalism and my own big word. That's why its so important to me to learn how to read the Bible and understand it, so I can inform other people about it.

So, yeh, well that was my little evangelism story, and I don't know why I even have the guts to blog this because it is kinda personal, but yeh, i just felt the need. I just pray that God can help me with this, and with reading the Bible, and that he will keep on sending people 4 me to talk 2, because I love making a difference and doing his work! :D

All Things Just Keep Getting Better..

Wow, I've had like the best 2 weeks eva!
Thanks so much God.
I asked him 4 comfort and he gave it to me.
I am so happy.
Everything just keeps getting better.
I feel really bad 4 the people who aren't happy (i've been reading blogs :P)
Lord, please give them the same comfort that you gave me.
Wow, I'm so happy. Had the best sleep this morning. :D

"My Milkshake brings all the boys to the yard....."

yet another scary picture of Rach! Good 'ol Rach 4 providing us with such humor in our lives.....

Yay 4 Tom!!

Yay! I now have Haloscan comments. It was done bi Tom, so this blog is all about giving Tom a big THANK YOU!! I luv you Tom, Mr. Blog Whiz! The only bad thing is that now all mi old comments are gone, but it doesn't matter because it's worth it! So people reading mi blog (if neone actually does :P) don't think I'm a loner person with no comments, I actually do get comments, they r just not there because of Haloscan! Oh yeh and how cool, I might be added to that Blog Waterhole thing. Yay! I'll have to link 2 it..
But neway, Yay 4 Tom!

The Great Adventure and Deep Thoughts

Small group was a great adventure 2nite. Because no1 'cept Mel, Rach H, Rach L, Helen and I were there(because every1 was either at the epn or at roseville skool play)
We decided to go to Rach H's place 4 small group instead because she couldn't get 2 Helens, so we set off for the big adventure to Duffy's Forest. Her house is way cool bi the way. The car trip was interesting. The presence of Mel always helps. We picked Rach up and Helen and Mel had a fight with the horn, which ended with Helen twisting Mel's arm, but with Mel getting many-a long honk in. :D
We stopped at the service station 2 stack up on goodies, and on the way back Helen and Rach locked us out of the car and started 2 drive off, so we sat on the bonnet and the boot. hehe, that made them open up. It was quite funni.
Rach L felt compelled to stare at me in the most scary way imaginable. A face that is now gonna haunt mi dreams! Thanks Rach!! When we arrived at Rach H's, Rach L was very scared of the dogs and I had to comfort her the whole way there, and back to the car. She thought they were gonna maul her. Hehehe...

The small group discussion got a bit off the topic most of the time, but it was still God-related. Mel brought up the controversial issue of why God allowed pain and suffering in this world and she was angry at him for not giving people a choice to be created and put on earth. We had a lot of discussion on it. We shared things together, such as Helen's journey to God, the room provoked all this. It was quite a reveal-all-your-deep-and-meaningful-secrets room. It was totally cool.

Everyone got a big word to describe themselves (made by Helen - the queen of big words), such as and intermissor (or could it be interceptor?),i actually can't remember, The intermissor word was Helen and Mel, and the other big word which started with R was Rach. Man, I'm not going very well, but just trust me that they were big words! But I didn't get one. That's because Helen said that I was still on my journey and I would have one in time. Yay. And what we talked bout on Saturday night was mi word but it wasn't actually a word, if u get me. You probably don't. Oh well. The night was totally fun.
We had to stop off at the Church on the way home so Helen could get me some Bible study notes, and Rach really had to pee, as she kept on reminding us. Mel and I had a quick dash into the Church (while Rach and Helen were in the Church Centre, peeing and retreiving things) and said a quick "hello", "what're doing here?", and "bi!", to T1 and Monty.

Overall small group was really good (not that it eva isn't :P) It was good because I was really in the mood for small group. It's just like one of those days where you feel like sitting down with friends, in the warmth of a fire and talking about God, y'know? Small group tonight kinda helped me to re-affirm how lucky I am. I mean, I haven't had an abused or hard childhood, I have a great family, lots of luxuries if I think about it, I have GREAT friends (i luv ya guys!) and I have God, the best of all! So now I can put things into perspective. I mean, sure, I'm not gonna get everything I want. But at least now I can be happy with what I have.
Thanks God.

Church Doubles

Has any1 eva noticed just how many doubles there are at church? I mean seriously, it's just not normal! This is a list of doubles, that Mel and I devised while in a boring Art History lesson! We racked our brains and this is all the ones we found, and it is seriously a lot! But if u go to St.Steves and are a double that we have not got on our list - the comment here and we'll add u!

Church Doubles
--> Pip x3
--> Gemma x2
--> Tim x2
--> Pete x2
--> Ashleigh x2
--> Rach x2
--> Steph x2
--> Jamie x2
--> Andrew x2
--> Dave x2
--> Bec x2
--> Steve x2

see, how many is that?

Strange Classes...

Well, today was very interesting. And 4 once this was because of classes. 3 to be exact - Science, Art and PD. Ahhhhh...the joys of a random class...

Science:

1st period, the day started us off with Science. Annie decided 2 not be here and be sick, so she left mel and I up to our own devices! Muhahahaa....... Mel felt like being random and vague, and suggested that she would hate if something she invented was named after her - she decided to tell me the non-existent example of "John Camera" heheehee, so Mel. Mel also wanted to know what her "scientific" name was, so here it is: Melanofades, the interesting creature that no-one can tame. We were attempting to finish all these sheets we had 2 do, and Mel was in a random I'm-gonna-write-everything-in-full-sentences-mood, which is realli strange 4 her! So me, being in the hypo mood I was, attacked her so she wouldn't finish the sentence she was writing, Mel then tried to escape and we ended up screaming and chasing each other around the Science lab, while she was still trying to finish the sentence! Where was the teacher? U may ask. Our teacher is sooooooo cool, she is totally used 2 us mucking up so she just kept on going on with the usual buisness of teaching the class while we ran around like lunatics. She's the coolest, u can get away with anything in that class!

PD:

Well good old Mrs. Irwin. She always makes PD, well how can I put it? Interesting... She decided she would like to tell us the details of her menstrual cycle when she was 23 and how the travel affected it, it was quite traumatic! (she's about 65 now!) Visual detail we don't need. And she always likes to mention how great sex is - and i quote - "it's quite exciting actually", "im not saying you shouldn't have sex, i mean just wait, because it is soooo wonderful when you finally do it" and many other equally scary things coming out of her old granny mouth. Quite hilarious actually, of course, only in hindsight, after you hav got over the shock!

Art:

Art, with Criddy. What more can I say. She makes the class intersting each time. Imagine an old, scary, "voluptuous" as Han would say, lady who has 2 sons called Bead and Darcy! I mean, shes truly a physco.
Once again, Han and I decided to do the physco dance that we did last lesson and ended with her banging her hand down on the table and screaming because we were doing this while she was trying to talk bout the conceptual framwork (boring!)
So anywayz, we were doing the physco dance again, and she turns around, and says in this really high-pitched voice, "Turn It Off" (refferring to the radio - which she has sum major thing against) and Han and I once again burst into fits of laughter.
Haha, Criddy u make our day :P

"This page cannot be displayed..." (again!)

Isn't everyone sick of that stupid page when it comes up?! It either means that your internet has dropped out (again!), your computer is not doing what it's told (again!) or the website you're looking for has stuffed up (again!)
Hehe, click here, to have a look at some random person who has too much time on their hands and has decided to make fun of this stupid page disaply!

The Great Debate

Well, today, what can I say it was an interesting day! Firstly, we had the performing arts tryouts, and, well, it didn't go too well. The school has some kinda unspoken rule that no-one is allowed to show their midriffs, ever. Our tops actually didn't, but while I was doing mi round-off, shock!, horror!, surprise! Mi shirt went up 2 inches, now they want us to wear a black leotard under the top. Man they are picky. And after we finished the dance, Mrs. Wilson is like "Well, it's not really very polished!" "HELLO!", I said to her, "We had 4 DAYS to make it!!" But of course she told me in response, that "It's easy to make up a dance in 4 days!" Hmph, has she eva tried?! I don't think so! And Mrs. Gray, who has been in a pissy mood eva since did a REALLY bad dye job on her hair, said we did too many things on the floor. Like they could do better.
They hated it, but we got in anyway.

On a happier note. English was actually fun. Our class loves to debate things, impromptue and in our desks of course, not in a formal setting. Seeing as the class is filled with "intellectuals" (because we're English 1) as Han would call them, these debates often last ages and are never resolved. We are studying Romeo and Juliet, and Ms. Everingham felt compelled 2 ask a very controversial question (that she should have known all too well would result in this) of "Who's fault was it that Romeo and Juliet died?"
We started off saying, well it was no-ones fault, you could go back to the start of time or wateva, and then we got into the question of whether they were actually in love, and then whether we believe in love at first sight. Which resulted in Kiera and i having a very heated 1 on 1 debate. Me, being the romantic that I am, was on love's side, and Kiera, being the "cold-hearted witch" as we called her (dw, all in joking context) was on the opposite. We ended up giving each other evil eyes, while Kiera said things to me such as - "One day you're gonna meet some hobo on the street and get married 2 him in one of those Las Vegas wedding chapels" and my retort was that she was "Going to end up as an old loveless lady, and all she had were her cats!" It was a very funni argument actually, one that progressed after the class had finished arguing and that Ms. Everingham had a lot of trouble breaking up. Seriously, don't try and fight with Kiera, espescially not on such a huge topic!

Although, i must admit, it was fun :P
And it helped me to confirm my feelings...

Blogging off

Random Thoughts

I'm so confused about "things"
Mel you understand what I'm talking about.
Nothing I can say in a blog.

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p.s am i completley incapable of summarising my days events in a short blog? I try, but never succeed!
p.p.s bi the way this blog dosn't count, see look im extending it without realisng and am having extreme troubles to stop myself from going on!! It's just proving mi point! Ahhh, beth shutup....

Dance Rivalry, Potatoes and Bludgin Class (yet again...)

Wow, I'm in Civics History right now (one of the worst possible subjects - 'cept we are in the computer rooms because we have an assignment and mi group and i have finished, so right now I like this subject because it's bludgy :D), and its last period! I can't wait 2 leave school, its been a long boring day.

At lunchtime Hannah and I practiced our dance 4 Middle School Performing Arts because our tryouts are on tomorrow. It's good, it still needs a bit more polishing of course, but I think it's good enough that they'll let us in. But the thing that is annoying is that there are these other people who are also doing a dance, Sian and Kelly, and they are really good dancers, like National Champs and stuff, and I'm just sick of everyone saying, "Hey, how good is Sian and Kelly's dance?" Like right in front of mi face, and I'm like, well, thanks! Sure, it's good, I can't deny it, and I'm not really jealous, I'm just sick of everyone going on and on about how good it is and kind of shunning us. That's the worst part about dancing against Sian and Kelly. Ahhh, meh

Mel's coming over this arvo. She usually comes over every Tuesday, 'cept she hasn't much latley, so we are finally reigniting the tradition of "Potato Day" Yay. I think we're gonna do a post together this arvo, so yeh.

Looking forward to this arvo, and night, because it's "Pizza Night", which is basically where mi Mum and I have a girls night, and stay home and make gourmet pizzas and watch America's Next Top Model, where we imitate their voices, in sterotypically nasal sounding American accents. Its fun. Meanwhile, mi bros are out at Homebush at cycling training, because they're like National champ freaks, both of them, so they train all the time, and yeh. I like to get them out of the house. Peac, quiet and girly times work 4 me.

Hints, Harrys and High-Pitched Voices

Well today was a pretty fun day, well let's exclude the night's activities for now. It started with Mel waking me up to go to her place to paint her room yellow. Now that was fun. When we were washing the walls, Mel grabbed a soapy sponge and smooshed it right in my face, so I smooshed her back, and we ended up having a screaming, sponge-dodging fight. Mel also found it very amusing to paint my legs white, which I just spent 1/2 scrubbing off in the shower. She was also very amused to find me caught in the "owie spot" on more than one painful occasion. When we were cleaning out the brushes we had yet another fight, this time with the hoses, in which Hannah S arrived just in time to catch the last of it. Hannah arrived when we were having our break, and we ate pies and talked together. During which Mel hinted in the most un-subtle way I've ever heard, that Hannah and Pete Hayes should go out. The converstaion went something like this:
Mel: "So when's Pete gonna teach you the drums?"
Hannah: "Ahhh, it probably won't happen.."
Mel: "You guys should make a day of it, Pete could teach you the drums, then you could go to the movies together... (winking from Mel, nervous chuckling from Hannah and hysterical laughter from me :P)
hehehe.

I had to leave at 2:30pm so I didn't get to put the actualy yellow colour on the walls. Mum wanted me to come see Harry Potter with the family. Yes, now I am posting this info in my blog under full awareness that I am probably going to be slaughtered by all the people whom which I have ridiculed and laughed at, while they have defended themselves, about going to see Harry Potter. T2 in particular. :P But neway, the movie was well..... what can i say about the movie? I had heard so many mixed reviews about it that it is probably impossible, under the circumstances, to present a true critique of it. But must I say, the change of director was obvious. The sets were different, but I think I was the only one who noticed. And I found the very unsubtle changes of season pretty corny. And, mi gosh, there is too much sexual tension between 13 yr olds, i mean come on! Apart from that nothing really stood out for me. I would say it was a pretty lukewarm movie. I wouldn't see it again.

But after this was when the torture really began. Mum decided it would be nice to go out for dinner. We ended up going to the eat-in Pizza hut at Warriewood. I can tell you I'm not going to be doing that again with my family any time soon! Firstly, we have to wait in a 15-minute line to get seated, and when we actually do, there is, surprise surprise, a party of little kids running around like lunatics. And my littlest brother, Michael, was being the biggest pain. We had to sit in one of those booth chairs, and of course, I was on the end, so I hardly got to stay in my seat the whole time, i was constantly getting up to let people in and out. They had no pizzas that i liked, they seemed to only want to cook the yuck ones. And my bros were just getitng on my nerves like you wouldn't believe! Only a person with two younger brothers could understand the struggle I was going through not to hurt them. And then, after we had finally left the damn restaurant, we drove home, with Michael once again trying to hurt Callum, and wailing in a high-pitched voice when mum got angry at him. Mum decided to play "Eye Spy" which was the worst game she could have possibly chosen for the mood I was in. Michael insisted on starting his turn with "I spy with my big pussy bleeding eye..." aaaahhh, little boys.
Let me just tell you I was gald to get home...

How much of your body is geek friendly?

See if you can type your name with your:

NOSE:gt335y
ELBOW: berth
TONGUE:beth
CHIN: bbdetghgbb
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: beth
BACK OF HAND:bryth
PALM: bverw65hg
MOUSE: bethg
WRIST: betyh

Ugh, I'm a very bad geek aren't i?

digital cameras are so useful
"instead of getting up and going to the mirror to see if my head is fit for going outside with, i can just take a photo of it, and be self-assured in the comfort of my own seat."
- as taken from chris's blog, hehe lazy bum :P
amen to that!

haha, i found this realli funni pic of rach on chris's blog. hehehehe.....

Yellow!

Going to paint Mel's room yellow today.
Yay!
It's finally happening :D

Bible Bashers and Dance Praying

I'm gonna try and fit in another blog b4 it is Monday. Church was cool and funni 2nite. Although I felt sick the whole time, and the fact that Pete Hayes felt compelled to throw a Bible at my head did not help. I mean just because he's obviously upset about sumthing, doesn't mean he should take it out on another people. I mean, it wasn't very nice. But I'll 4 give him, even tho it hurt, because he looks very depressed. Poor Pete.

Steve gave a very interactive sermon 2nite, which involved us splitting into groups and discussing questions about a passage, but our group (Ashley Baker, Claire, Gemma and I) were pretty shotty and tended to not hear the question! oops - steve had 2 help us a few times.

And Mel and I were "brave" people that Rach L was looking 4 to give an impromptue speech about EBN last nite. So we got up there, and spent a while laughing, till I had 2 start because Mel wouldn't. I embarressed miself by using horrible grammar, "there were foots on the wall" Mi god, at least i corrected miself through the fits of laughter. And I got $2 from Gem, because she dared me to tell everyone that she didn't come and she'd give me money, so i did, i said "lots of people came, but some didn't, like gemma, because she stayed home and was a BLUDGER, so i suggest everyone comes next time!" It fit in well, and now I'm $2 richer. Yay :D

Luke's long john's are keeping me company at home until they arrive at Hannah's on Tuesday all ready for their Speedo Joel transformation. :D hehe. Yay. And one question, Y did Speedo Joel not turn up to church? Grrr him. And T2 didn't come either, I wanted 2 talk 2 him. I told T1 about Thrush Anonymous meetings and how Mel is obsessed with Thrush and he was severley freaked out! Don't blame him...hehe, it was funni tho.

Oh, and Dance was soo cool. We all came and we ALL had blue T-shirts and black pants. It was realli funni. And we thought that Ash would turn up and ruin it all, 'cept she didn't come! :'( We missed Ash. And after we finished dancing we were gonna pray 4 Kwame, and then we decided 2 do a prayer dance. So we split up into 4 groups of 2, and 1 person had to be God and 1 had to be Kwame, and you had 2 express what you wanted to say and pray 4 through your dance. It was so cool. I was with Megan and she was Kwame and I was God. Mel thought it was gonna be hard to do, but once you started dancing, it all just came out and it was so easy. And fun too.

I like Church and Ernie and Dance. It's such a cool part of mi life :D

Lasers, Footprints and Good Times with Good Friends....

I am so happy. :D
EBN was soooo fun! They had laser lights, and smoke machines and cafe and air hockey tables, and they used the footprints theme that we came up with in small group. Yay!
And Helen and I had a D&M, it was really cool and nice. She gave me a Bible too :D I'm reading Mark right now.
I talked 2 a lot of people, and I finally found out y Ernie is called Ernie from Tom. It's something about Earnest Prayer. Haha, and Luke gave me his long john's to turn into Speedo Joel merchandise, I'm gonna give them to Hannah W on Tuesday at school.
I kinda felt bad last nite because I didn't help pack up, cuz i left at like 11, so they were already packing away, and Pip L and Tim B and KC and I just made more mess bi pushing down chairs and stuff...hehe :P
Overall it was a REALLY good night! And damn Gemma 4 missing it, she's gonna be paying 4 it later ;)
hehehe,
Beth

Return of the Happiness

I'm happy in mi own body.
I'm content.
Thanks God

I think He's finally helped me to put it into perspective
bf/gf relationships really don't matter that much
In time, it will all happen
It'll follow his divine plan
I just have to be patient

I've honestly had a great week
I'm elated at the tiniest things,
that I usually took for granted.
Mi happiness is back.
:D

There's nothing else for me to do but DANCE!....

"There's nothing else for me to do but DANCE!....
all these hard times I'm going through,
just DANCE!
Candy on mi heels tonight, Big Ben.
Woooo ooooohh oooohhhh"

I'm in a dancy mood.
My feet, back and every single muscle imaginable aches,
but it was worth it.

I danced for 5 and 1/2 hours yesterday, no joke.
But Hannah W and I finally finished our dance for Performing Arts!
We'd been practicing every lunchtime for the whole week, fighting off people to rights to the only CD Player in the school, danced all night last night, and perfected the rest today.
It's a combination of hip-hop, jazz and our combined gymnastics abiltity :P I'm really happy with it.
We've also got our costumes downpat.
I'm really excited,
and really happy with our effort, we deserved this.

"My friend Casey....."

"My friend Casey defeated gravity and flew - for a split second" - quoted by Gem
Here's yet another extract of some-one hilarious blog.
Casey's gravity-defying stunt - in her own words...

Everyone had gone to the hall at lunchtime to watch Hannah Sena and Beth dance. So after Julia and I sat in awkward silence for ten minutes we decided to join them. As we got there i saw Beth and Han fiddling with the CD player, and the rest of the group playing Basketball. I decided to join the b-ballers. We were just mucking around for awhile, no real teams, when i saw jacki on the opposite side of the court preparing to pass the ball to Bubs. The quick thinker that i was, i decided to run infront of Bubs and jump for the passing ball. Unfortunately it was more of a dive, a dive that i forgot to land. Instead of landing triumphently on the polished wood (with the ball in my grasped hands), i seemed to be diving horizontally around one and a half metres from the floor. I don't exacly remember how i landed but i remember i was in pain. Not like blood pain, just aching. Everywhere. I quickly pulled down my skirt and looked around. Everyone was either laughing or seeing whether i was OK, how embarrassing. I don't think i even got the ball. I was curled in a heap on the floor, when i heard Ozzy's booming voice "That's it, everyone, OUT!". Well, actually i don't remember that, i was told she said that later. Jess and Gemma pulled me up, i was doing nothing, just trying to pull myself down to the floor. They finally got me up, practically dragging me to the stairs. What was even worse, is that whenever people tried to cheer me up by saying something funny, tears came bursting out of my eyes! I told them to not make me laugh, but i don't think they understood, so as we were walking up the stairs, everyone still trying to make me laugh, i couldn't take it anymore, and ran to the bathrooms.
That was my story of how i 'fought the law of gravity', my superman experience, my stupid attempt to be a bird.

Typical.

LONG WEEKEND!!

Thankyou Queen 4 being born so we can hav an extra day of weekend, and bludge monday classes, which are the worst of the week!
Mi plans 4 the weekend r pretty filled. So far this is what i hav pretty organised:

Friday - Hannah W is sleeping ova so im not gonna go the the church 2 set up 4 EBN which i was gonna do (i wanted 2 go 2 small group *sniff* *sniff*), and we have to practice our dance and im babysitting mi litle bro at the same time
Saturday - Hannah stays on saturday and we practice dance again and do dress-rehearsal, then saturday i go to EBN (yes i've decided 2 go!) then Mel is probably sleeping ova.
Sunday - Go with Mel to teach sunday skool in morning, stay at church till like 1 after, go home 4 2 hours the come back 2 church 4 dance, then ernie then nite church.
Monday - see movie with friends :D

God its so hectic I hope I don't collapse, I nearly did last week and I did half the stuff! I'm gonna apologise in advance 4 who-ever's doing the sermon on Sunday night, because I'm probably gonna fall asleep in it like I did with Phil's last week! :P

Ernie's Big Night!

Should I go to EBN?
hmmmm.....
to go or not to go
that IS the question.....

Rach's mishaps

Hehe, Rach is so funny. She did like 3 really funny things in the matter of a few days. These events can be best summed up in her words, so here's an extract from her blog:

"I like the authoritarian figures in my life. Like Helen. I blessed her carpet with a bout of fizzy drink not once, but twice on Friday night at small groups. The first time it was just a shaken up bottle of coke. The second displayed my soccer genius, when I kicked the empty coke bottle into Helen's glass of solo. But she was very nice about it, said she had something funny to blog about for the night. So yes, we like her. Tom's nice too. I accidently-on-purpose pulled his chair out from underneath him at Ernie tonight, sending him sprawling. But he laughed. Yay for Helen and Tom not being tightarses!"

hehe, ur funni Rach...

Happy Birthday Luke!

Yay for Luke! It is his birthday 2day! And he turns......5!
Hehe, bet u thought I was talking about Luke FREEMAN, but I am not, because Luke Freeman's b'day was in April and Luke Freeman is now officially 10 years older than my cousin Luke UNIACH, of which I am talkin bout! And he's having his first b'day party this year!
Happy Birthday mi cute little cuz!


awwww.....cutie pie

Marks

I am so annoyed at society right now. Does that sound weird, yes, of course it does. Because it is! But seriously, why is society so obsessed with marks? All anyone cares about is exams, marks, results, tests. This is not what it's about. Why does it matter? Even we make big deals about it. My friend Melissa (aka. Bubs) decided that this year she wouldn't tell anyone her exam marks, and you wouldn't believe the crap she got from people who were obsessed with finding out what she got!And my other friend Loz, gets sooo stressed about exams, she is in tears during nearly the whole time, becomes depressed and once I was even scared she was gonna hurt herself. How can people allow this 2 happen? We are only kids for God's sake. Stress is known to shorten your life span and cause many other detrimental physical effects on the body.
We shouldn't be put in these situations.
Like I got my Maths exam back not long ago, and I got 70%, but seeing as I am in the top class, i scored "signifigantly below average" on nearly every section ('cept algebra, algebra rox!) And the teacher had to have a "chat" with me at lunch about my "dissapointing" exam mark. The pressure ended up finally getting to me and I was in tears in English. After I got over being upset, I felt angry. Why is society so exam-driven? It's not right. There are other ways to measure intelligence. Not everyone works well in an exam situation.
I'm quite annoyed right now.
Why is the pressure to acheive so great?
Is this pressure going to have detrimental effects on our future generations?
Who is to blame?

Melissa NSC

This is an extract from Hannah's blog! Man it's funny!

"Force (pause) Elite (pause) the best in the state, (pause) Red, black, and white (use team colors)(pause) first rate.



Blogging on here,
MelissaNSC is our cheerleading coach, as you can see Beth and i weren't expecting her as a coach, we were expecting a blonde bimbo or a nerd with a retainer. Instead we were stuck with Melissa, a vulumptous furious chick who thinks we can't count to 3!
We arrived at the church anxious of her arrival but there she was with her bland navy blue trackpants and a baggy sweat shirt she flicked her dirty black hair and said HIT IT! OMG, no! We didn't no what we were in for.. thats when Beth discovered a picture that looked exactly like her on a website, with the exception of no glasses. Beth and i printed the picture off and in cheerleading placed it beside her CD Player..waiting for an outcome, half way through the class she said:

"Ok Guys jokes over, you've done your research it is me..it is me (pause) Who's Beth, who's beth? (laughter could be heard in the background) Who is Beth? Are you Beth!

It was so funny! More updates on MelissaNSC..next friday!"

Haha, seriously good personal joke times!

Hectic Days, Crazy People and Lack of Sleep

Hey, well, I had the most hectic weekend eva. 4 a start, I went 2 Jess's party, now this was, interetsing, shall I say. Firstly, on the way we were in the car with Ted and we were doing karaoke to...Britney Spears "Oops I Did It Again" Hehe, it was quite hilarious.
Once we got to the restaurant, we were seated upstairs in a REALLY big long table, so I only got to see half of mi group that night, but there was this really phsyco guy there who verbally abused us! We were "being too loud" and he turned around and started a string of swear words, which mainly consisted of "fuckin kids...damn...fuck...kids...loud...fuckin hell..." and an array of equally colourful language, that the whole restaurant heard, and the man on the opposte table politley pointed out that "i think the man is trying to say your being too loud", and the service was soo bad, the waiters treated us like we weren't even customers, slamming the food down on the table and being generally rude, and the food wasn't that great either, so I'm definatley not coming back there again!

But after dinner (of which mainly consisted 4 me of 1 slice of pizza and a scoop of pasta, I was starved) we went back to Gemma's house 4 the sleepova, and we watched Phone Booth, which I've seen about 10 times, but it's still good, and then we watched a Viva-La-Bam marathon, which was really funny! This guy, his name is Bam right, and he got 4 truckloads of xmas lights and put them on his house, and made the whole of the insisde of his house an ice skating rink by putting this special layer of ice down, and then he got fake snow, like HEAPS of fake snow and sprayed it all outside, so it was like it was snowing, and then he got all these trucks and drove around and stuff, he was truly physco. He was a guy who was on Jackass once, so i think that explains it!

The next day, Mel had to leave early 4 Sunday School, but the rest of us hung around and watched Silence of The Lambs, which was my second time I'd seen it, and it definatley wasn't as scary as every1 made it out 2 be, like I love a scary movie, but this 1 was not!

And then Hannah W and Gem and I went 2 Chatty 2 go shopping. We ended up getting Boost, but we got an extra 1 because of this free deal thingo, and Hannah left it in Valley Girl! And she came back 2 get it later and it was gone!

I wonder where that Boost it now...

And I bought a jumper in Valley Girl and a necklace in Diva. Excellent... But bi this time I was getting really tired, and all the extra energy I gained from sleeping in on Sat. morning left. Mum was late picking us up, so I had to drop off Han and Gem, then rush home, pick up dance pants, and rush off to Church Dance.

Dance was realli fun bi the way, 'cept I felt a bit behind everyone, but obviously I would be because it was mi first week, but I think I've pretty much got the chorus good, 'cept the rest of it I'm a bit rusty. Ahh, well I'll pick it up. It was realli fun tho!! :D And then I went 2 Ernie afta that, so bi this time I am sooooo exhausted, and I met Jo Yay 4 Jo! I was going on in her blog about how she didn't know me and how Church circles aren't welcoming and how I don't know half the people at Church and stuff, so she's like "Hey, I'm Jo, you posted on mi blog, now I know you!!" and yeh...it was cool...Jo's nice (hey Jo if ur reading!)

But neway, Church was cool, but I felt real bad, because I was practically falling asleep during Phil's (i think it was Phil, i dunno i was half-asleep) sermon. And i was sitting with mi knees 2 mi chest, resting mi head on 1 knee, and then Gem got her scarf and rolled it up and put it on mi knee 4 mi head 2 lie on and I'm like "Nooooo.....I must stay awake, if u do that I'm gonna fall asleep!" I think I ended up staying awake the whole time...but I sooooo didn't absorb any of it! Ahhh...meh

Neway, I had a pretty big weekend, and I pretty much passed out wen I got home, after I struggled through the rest of mi Maths h/w and attempted to clean mi "pigsty of a room" as mi Mum so nicley put it.

Christmas 2001!

Isn't this a ncie photo that I found while cleaning out my computer! (L-R Me, Uncle Pete, Michael, Dad and Callum) We are at my Aunty Joey's house for Christmas. I was 11 :D

WEEKEND!!

Yay! Weekend - FINALLY! This week has felt like a kind of strange week 4 sum reason that I don't know y, but I'm just glad that it is finally the weekend.
For a good start to the weekend, i slept in until 10:30am today!! Man, it was good. I haven't done that 4 ages. It was my attempt to catch up on the weeks, months, years of lost sleep. 2day I have to force myself 2 do schoolwork, which is actually what I should be doing now, but you know, who wants to write about how their major work fits into the four frames, subjetive, cultural, structural and post-modern. Yawn! Can you say boring? But i gotta do it, or Criddy will fail me, ahh, ill get round 2 it eventually.
2nite is Jess's 15th b'day party! Yay. :D We're going 2 Pino's Pizzeria and then after there is a sleepover party at Gem's with Loz, KC, Mel, Gem and I. Yay. Fun. We're gonna stay there 4 the day on Sunday, and I think we're going 2 Chatty to get Boost but I'm not sure, meh, we'll figure something out. Then I leave 4 Church dance, then Ernie, then Church, then home again, then SCHOOL! ahhh...crap I've got a French exam, I almost 4got bout that. And through ALL of this we've gotta make up a dance 4 Middle School Performing Arts Evening...ahhh, i hope we get 2 make it in time, because i really wanna be in it this yr! Oh well, hope y'all (hehe i luv that word) hav a great weekend too!

Footprints Poem

Hey don't you just love this poem?
It's mi fave in the world!
I'm getting it framed and put on mi wall in mi room soon!

It's a beautiful picture of God's relationship and love 4 us..

One night a man had a dream,
He dreamt that he was walking along the beach with God.
Across the sky flashed scenes of his life.
For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand.
One belonging to him, the other to the Lord.

When the last scenes of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that at many times in his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that this happened at the very lowest points in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed at the most troublsome points in my life,
There is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand that when I needed you most you would leave me"

The Lord replied, "My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During the times of trial and suffering,
When you only see one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you"

Life.....

Mi life is pretty blah right at the moment, you know im all confused bout everything, espescially relationships, not just with guys, although they are part of it, but with parents and friends as well. Maybe, i think, if I'm so confused about relationships and mi feelings and everything, then maybe I'm not ready to have a relationship. I feel ready, but maybe God's trying to tell me in a way i'm not. My Mum seems to be holding onto me tighter right at this moment as well, but strangely enough its the time i most need her to let go. Cuz im growing up now, but I don't know if she can accept that yet, because in her eyes i seem young, but to me im an old soul, and i feel experienced, although in theory im probably not.

I often wonder, the age old question, what is the meaning of all this. Life, in general. Like sumtimes it just seems like a roundabout, sumtimes it seems like a joy, pure unadulterated joy, and you feel like your flying, riding on the wings of life, but sumtimes, more often than not, it is sad, so incredibly sad that the emotional pain is so bad that you can actually physically feel it. I mean is this what life is all about, is this what God wants for us? To experience so many contrasting emotions, then die and join him? I often wonder...

Warmth, Secrets and Anger

I just got back from small group. Fun Fun. We did bible study on Titus, and pretty much stuffed our faces with food. Although we were a bit distracted, due to our tired state! But I joined dance, yay - cool. I like dance, Hannah W, Mel, Jacki, Julia and I decided to make a dance for the Middle School Performng Arts Evening this year seeing as it is our last year in the middle school! And we r also trying to get on the committe, which basically means we get to be the audition judges and bludge class 4 ages! Yay. but the main reason I wrote was 2 say, that now half the small group know a secret about me now. Sitting in a warm comfy room must kind of stimulate these kind of confessions and relisations by other people. And it must bring on the fights as well.

Mel and I had a fight (but dw its all resolved now, im used 2 fighting with mel neway we do it all the time but usually ova stupid little things - hey mel i hope u don't mind me writing all this, please don't get angry, i mean well) about, well this is silly, it was about Luke (hey Luke if ur reading!) Mel was looking through mi phone and she found like the hundred millon messages in there that Luke has sent me, but i had deleted most of them, but not the most recent ones, like the last 2 weeks or so so there were bout 12 or sumthing in there (yes Luke u really DO send me that many messages!) but they all happened to hav a bit in there bout Mel, so she was annoyed that I was talking to Luke about her "all the time", but it actually wasn't i told her, (those messages were very incriminating) just lately because i needed someone to talk 2 and there was no-one really who wanted 2 listen cept luke (thanks luke!) cuz i usally talk 2 mel because she is mi best friend and all, but we were havin problems so i just needed advice but she was a a bit pissed about me telling him this stuff. Ahhhh, well, its all resolved but yeh. Fun night overall. Who's coming to Ernie's Big Night next week?
Blogging off,
Beth

Ok, im just looking at mi Mini Magnum stick and it says "Feeling Dizzy"
Random, these sticks r random.
They use sex 2 advertise wayyyyy 2 much i say, not that the aforementioned comment had nething much 2 do with sex, but meh, it triggered mi random train of thought.
Bloggin off 4 REAL this time,
Beth

Posts and Traumatisation

Ahhhh......I am sooo annoyed! Damn society's sterotypical oppressions on todays youth! Ahhh.....im so pissed! Ok, so mel and I decided to go to Chatswood to buy Jess's present for her b'day party on Saturday, and we decided to buy her a ring that had an engraving in it that said "Happy 15th, Luv Mel and Beth" So we went into Prouds jewellers and we had to wait about 10 mins to get help from this lady, and she came over and she snapped "YES?" at us, and we asked to try on some of their rings, and shes like
"(sigh) Ok....." so we tryed on the ring, and we didnt like it so we were asking to try on other rings and shes getting more and more pissed at us, and we finally find one we like, and we were discussing whether we were gonna get it, because it was a bit expensive, and she starts tapping incessantly on the desk and looking at her watch, so we decide to get it and she totally shuns us, pushing the ring into our hands so we will get out, and giving us dirty looks the whole time we're in there!

I hate it how you go into a store and the security gaurds stand there giving you seedy looks the whole time your in there until you leave, just because your a teenager. One time Mel and Gemma and KC and I went into this party store and we were looking around and the lady gave us seedy looks and turned the securtiy camera on just because we were in there! Ahh, i hate people like that!
But the engraving guy was nice, he gave us a discount so the cost would be easy to split between us. Don't you love spontaneously nice people. Thanks for that God.
But the only good thing was that we tried the new blueberry Boost, and it was soooo good!

I had one of the most traumatising days of mi life today! We actually had to see a baby being born, and it was sooooo GRAPHIC! The whole video was so gaphic. It showed a penis ejaculating and inside a vagina and penis during orgasm n stuff - im like "i SOOOOO do not need 2 see this!" And we actually saw the baby being SQUEEZED out! Ahhh, it was foul! And we had these seminar speaker people, and they were all like assuming we had already had sex, and im like "HELLO! We are 14 years old! And we are a CHRISTIAN school, and the majority of our year, including me, don't believe in sex b4 marriage!" Mayb they r just used to public skools. And she taught us how to use the pill and everything, we even put condoms on the bananas. I'm set 4 life now! ;) And she also said "Now when you go to parties and binge drink, and take drugs, you can lose control of your body and have sex" NO-ONE goes to these parties! Ahhh, come on. I still feel sick from that video. I mean, I'm usually good with these kinds of things, but honestly, this is too much...

school libraries, freezing cold and bludging work

Hey,
right now I'm in the school library, its freezing cold and I am supposed to be doing work! Science assignment to be exact, but u know I got a bit distracted by the wonderful world of blogging...i feel very proud to be mentioned on tom's site (thankyou tom :P) and an outsider blogged on our speedo joel website! yay. Haha

You know the scary thing is that the school is probably reading every single word that i write right now. You know they have this freaky thing where whenever you log into your account, a little window comes up and they can watch everything you do, everything you write even, they'd probably know what a big bludger i am too, a minimised website and word documnet on Pompeii, and a million other blog websites being opened and closed, while the actual work part of mi visit to the library is being very sadly neglected. I wouldnt be surprised if they came and told me to get off the computer right now, i mean, they do that often, they see you playing a game and, ooops, before u know it, you're being hastily shuffled out of the library, because they don't want their perfect view of the hard-working Rosevilian girl to be ruined. I mean our motto is actually "Work Conquers All" (Labor Omnia Vincit as it says on our blazer) I mean how sad is that, I personally would have put it as Amor Omnia Vincit, Love Conquers All but u know, meh.
Today we have a PD (Personal Development) Day. How fun. Its bludgy tho. We get to miss the 1st 4 periods, to sit around and play with little babies in Hinemoa, but I've heard we have to watch a baby being born and that it is very graphic, not looking forward 2 that, it was bad enuf in Yr 6 in Interrelate, I neva thought they'd make us endure it again! Oh well, I'll keep u posted (excuse the pun :P)
Beth

letters, links and lack of love

hey, go here to read this realli sweet and sad poem - Just For This Day Poem - I found it on Luke's blog (hah - don't mind if i steal the link, thanks luke :P :D)

Newayz, I got mi letter from mi Aunty Cathy the other day, and I am in the middle of replying to her, and it is taking AGES! I just realised how much i had 2 tell her - i actually had 2 write a list of all the things i needed to say so i wouldn't 4get! It's going on 20 pages now, this is gettin ridiculous (haha)...she'll neva reply, she takes ages wen its a 2 page letter...ahh meh, the worst part is how if i want to tell her one thing, then I have to actually explain a whole other thing, like for eg. if i wanted to tell her how it was so funny that last wk at church Joel told me he actually wanted to BUY a Speedo Joel T-shirt, the I'd have to explain the whole story of Speedo Joel!

And I've also been complaining bout mi lack of luv life, and the complications of others! I spend half mi time worrying about other peoples luv problems and how I would solve them, and the other half worrying bout the lack of mine! U know, I'm just thinking now, that I luv the movie 'Love Actually', and that you're sposed 2 feel all good at the end, but i kinda feel sad, and kinda sad 4 miself, even tho that may sound weird, i can't help it. Like I'd like to have a bf, but i 'spose i just hav to trust god with it all, even tho it is hard, like wateva he has planned 4 me i just hav to try mi hardest 2 accept, i mean, if he wants me 2 hav heartbreak then no luv 4 ages, then mayb thats wats sposed 2 happen 4 sum reason, i mean i realli hav no idea, mel and hannah and i were praying outside at helens house about helping all of us just to accept what god has in plan 4 us and to always put him first, but u know, its hard sometimes....pray 4 me peoples

Beth